Letting Go....

aNoTHeR cHaNce...

2010-04-22T12:11:00.005+08:00

Since exams for the week have come to a halt,

till the following wednesday,

I decided to watch a movie over my dinner(Chocolate Milk and Sausage bread :P)...

Hehe....

Relax a lil...

I was deciding what i should watch,

looking through my movie library,

i came across "Gridiron Gang"...

I knew a little about the movie,

hesitated a bit since such movies were not so much entertainment,

but more of inspirational and have to do more thinking one...

But in the end,

I watched it,

and I was truly TRULY INSPIRED....

The movie is based on a true story of a juvenile detention camp probation officer Sean Porter,

potrayed by Dwayne Johnson - The Rock,

who is frustrated by the 75% recidivism rate of the teenage felons that he is responsible for at Camp Kilpatrick....

Being a former football star,

he came up with an idea to form a football team believing that it will teach the teenage inmates what it takes to be responsible, teammates and be winners for the first time...

Porter and probation officer, Malcolm Moore became their coaches and together helped this teengaers,

in the end, bringing a change in the recidivism rate as well as changes in the lives of all the footballers....

There were so many parts in the show i nearly cried...

Was so inspired that during the movie,

i took down notes as to not forget them, hehe...

Throughout the whole movie,

I learnt so much from the coach -Sean Porter...

This are the qualities i saw in him,

1. He took time to UNDERSTAND people.

2. He pushed them to be not what they wanted to be, but what they were MEANT to be.

3. He saw beyond the criminals and problematic kids they were and gave them another CHANCE.

4. He chose to BELIEVE in them even when they and the whole world lost hope in themselves.

5. He made MISTAKES as a leader, admitted it and learnt from it.

6. He was HUMBLE enough to humiliate himself, to build another up.

7. He gave each a ROLE, a position and a place to fit in.

8. He has a strong MENTOR in his life who he opened his life up to share, learn and grow.

9. He was interested in impacting LIVES more than anything else.

10. He did not only teach the ones he taught, but was TAUGHT by the ones he teached.

11. Though there were OBSTACLES and disagreements, he did not let anything or anyone stop him from what he believed in.

12. He looked not to their strength, abilities or gifts, but their HEARTS.

13. He was a man not breathing to survive, but breathing to make a DIFFERENCE.

This is Porter...

I believed why this inspired me so much,

is because i "connected" with all the qualities protrayed by Porter....

The above qualities can basically sum up everything I believe in...

My standards,

Passions and dreams...

All summed up by one man....

YOu wanna know what i am workin to become?

Other than Jesus,

watch the show,

and look at Porter....

fAitHfuL mEn... wHo cAn finD?

2010-03-22T12:21:00.004+08:00

"Many a man claims to have unfailing love,

but a faithful man who can find?"

Provebs 20:6

Haha,

That's the product of reading the product of reading proverbs...

Anyways,

was reading Proverbs one morning and stumbled upon this verse...

Honestly why it hit me is because,

i have been thinking about relationships lately....

Not any relationships,

THE relationship.....

Want to give credit to both my parents,

as well as my advisors from Yf back home....

They have indeed been people who have trained me up well....

I trully thank God for them...

They have taught me the importance of not plunging into the deep waters of Courtship,

but learn to first take baby steps into the shallow banks of Friendship first...

But when i read this verse,

I thought,

REAL HARD....

Honestly,

this is one of the biggest challenge to me,

and i speak to many guys as well....

Come on,

even the bible says it...

We man can talk very well....

Sweet talk, promise a lot...

But when comes to doing what we talk,

it's not too bad at first,

but when the roads are tough,

it's so easy to just give up...

Take the recent Jack Neo's affair case as an example....

Sigh,

I too fear that i would not be faithful to "her"...

For a faithful man who can find?

Haha...

Well,

But as much as I've said,

God is also teaching me to have faith....

I cannot guarantee my faithfulness to "her"...

But I believe as GOd builds on my faith,

as i learn to just trust Him,

He will make me Faithful,

not only to her,

but i believe,

TO HIM....

STU-P-ID LA!!

2010-03-12T13:22:00.003+08:00

"Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge,

but he who hates correction is stupid."

Proverbs 12:1(NIV)

Came across this verse today,

and it really spoke to me....

Hate disipline,

and be labled STUPID,

STUPID lei!!!!

Wow,

well,

I admit,

accepting criticism,

correction,

rebuke

and discipline is a HUGE challenge to me...

In fact i speak not only for me but for my generation as a whole...

We have been a generation that have experienced many good things in life...

Let's just face it,

it's definitely much better than days before,

technology is the one that has brought all that to our doorstep,

take handphone for example,

it used to be a thing only businessmen has,

but now, each person around just cant live without one...

We have become a generation that is INFORMED...

With the WORLD WIDE WEB,

information is at the tip of our fingers....

The convenience and instant comfort our generation obatains,

is I believe the very thing that makes our generation somewhat a bit spoiled and prideful...

From my opinion,

that is the very reason why our generation cant stand being CORRECTED...

We cant STAND people telling us what to do...

WE JUST CANT STAND IT!!!

But is it all good,

let's look at scripture again,

"he who hates correction is STUPID..."

S-T-U-P-I-D...

We all need to learn to accept discipline...

We just NEED to LEARN...

As much as we CANT STAND IT...

To me,

If our generation just CANT STAND IT,

and it is left as that,

our generation will be lost to the EVIL ONE...

He has won,

because of generation does not know submission,

only rebellion....

It is a scary thought for the future of our generation...

(Please note that i am talking to myself)...

To parents, teachers, pastors, advisors, mentors, leaders, elders, and older brothers and sisters...

On behalf of my generation,

I want to thank you for loving us by correcting us,

and i hope you wont stop there,

but i hope you guys would learn to correct like what the bible says,

in love and gentleness...

We promise we are working at it to listen to you guys...

And to my dear generation,

Yes,

Am talking to you:P...

Let's learn together,

let's know that when any of these older guys come along,

no matter how fierce or scary,

let's understand it is because they love us,

and let's learn to ACCEPT CORRECTION...

And between friends and accountabilities,

let's also learn to correct one another in love,

for isnt that what friends are for?

Let's RISE UP to not be CALLED STUPID!!

C++

2010-03-08T09:45:00.002+08:00

This is by far the toughest subject I am taking for now....

Never expected it would be part of a MATHS course...

For those who dont know what this is,

let's just say it's learning a new language,

COMPUTER LANGUAGE!!!

This week will be having 2 papers of this sub....

Was desperate,

so had to borrow this book:P...

HEhe...

Really feel like a dummy when learning this sub... Haha...

nOTHinG...

2010-03-01T10:28:00.003+08:00

Ever heard people using this word as an escape answer??
"Hey, what you guys talking about?"
"NOTHING!!!"
Hehe...
Well,
It's the 1st of March,
yet another month,
my last post was in Feb,
also on the 1st....
Honestly,
feel a bit 'guilty' sometimes as to the frequency of my blog updates...
Seeing people like Joel and Gideon update their blogs is simply amazing....
Salute them la...
I have nothing...
It's not that my life is a boring mess or something, hehe...
It's just nothing lor....

Bloggers should understand this when you just dont have anything to write,
putting down one's life into words requires more than just having something to write about,
call it lack of inspiration,
or lack of feel,
or whatever,
yup....
For now, that's just the state i am in now.....
God Bless the Bloggers!!!:)

fEBruArY 1zt...

2010-02-01T12:11:00.003+08:00

It's February the 1st...
Which means???
It's the end of a month and beginning of another,
DUH!!!
Haha...
BUt then,
Cant believe it's a month already...
It didnt seem that fast at first,
not until now when I look back,
WOW,
A whole month of January is gone already...
Told ya time flies faster then jets:D

Anyways,
I would not say it's a GREAT month or anything,
but it was good...
Hehe...
Because God has been GOOD to me....
Ya,
I mean anyone can say that la,
but then,
till you REALLY experience it,
you would agree too....

Going through this month was not all fun and games,
Had quite a challenging time settling down...
What's more after one of the most amazing and fruitful holidays I had...
Mornings are especailly hard....
There are mornings when I SPRING out of bed,
and be ready for a new day....
But then there are mornings I sluggishly drag myself up and dread....
Lets just say,
life isnt always good to me....
But GOD is!!!

God truly taught me a valuable lesson...
Moods and emotions are many times uncalled for...
Sometimes because of circumstances,
situations, environments,
people, ESPECIALLY people,
memories or maybe even Hormones that affect your emotional status for that time....
It isnt wrong to feel that way,
it isnt our fault to be angry, sad, depressed, down or "Emo"....
But then,
the lesson here was that, though we dont always "Make" the emotion,
we can always learn to "DRIVE" it....
It isnt always our decision to be SAD....
But it is our decision to take the next step,
to either continue being SAD,
or CHEER UP....

God really rebuked me when I was here...
He showed me the unpredictability of our feelings towards life....

Sometimes, life feels like dead lizard....

We dread it, it stinks, it feels as though one is rotting inside out....
Nothing to look forward to, nothing to keep you going,

only the Stench....

SOmetimes, life feels like the sky,

Amazing, beautiful, a sight to see...

But then you never know when the clouds will come,

bringing darkness and gloom as the light vanishes a little at a time....

SOmetimes life feels SWEET...

Like all kinds of chocolate, cakes, pastries....

But sweet till you "jelak"....

Too sweet it becomes bitter....

Sometimes, life feels like a present,

surprises awaits, challenges to face....

BUt till disappointement comes when we realize what is outside does not make the inside....

Life is unpredictable....

The emotions that result from the circurmstances and situations we face in life is even more SURPRISING....

Humans can feel up at a time,

and suddenly feel down after a second...

Girls and guys alike(Please la guys, admit you are emo too, sometimes worse than girls)..
But if we just keep that negative emotion within and allow it to stay,

it will GOVERN our life...

It will TAKE CONTROL....

GOd taught and is teaching me to TAKE CONTROL of my emotions...

Drive it where it is suppose to be...

Mornings are always a challenge,

but then,

this is my decision,

no matter how i feel,

let me start this day with a SMILE:D

P.S. Meet Quaky(below)... He's a mutated penguin.... My very first birthday gift i recieved this year....

bAnGsA? aPa?

2010-01-15T11:42:00.004+08:00

It was my second class of Hubungan Etnik(Ethnic relations)...
Basically what we learn for this class is understanding other Kaums(races),
Learning to live together,
Learning to WOrk together.....
Our lecturer is one of the coolest lecturers I've known so far....
He really knows how to teach....
Not the sitting-down-reading-from-book type of lecturer,
but one who stands up,
walks around,
connects with students,
relates current issues to the topic,
and makes the whole subject lively,
enjoyable and fun...
And to add on to that,
he's from KLUANG....
STK some more...

Anyways,
During the class this past wednesday,
we were talking about Bangsa...
He was talking about how in the forms we fill in all around Malaysia,
whether is for applications of jobs,
or whether is for I.C or driving license,
there will be a slot that writes "Bangsa",
and the 4 choices usually given is this:
Melayu, Cina, India, Lain-lain...

So he went round the class asking 3 different person a question,
A Malay, A Chinese and an Indian
"Apa Bangsa Kamu?"
The Malay replied:"Melayu"
The Chinese:"Cina"
and i think you can guess the Indian's answer as welll..
Hehe...

3 different people,
3 different races,
same question,
different answers,
but same concept behind the answers,
and after that,
our lecturer concluded all the answers to be
WRONG....

He then explained that all the answers given were for "Kaum",
not "Bangsa"...
"Kaum" only involves our skin colour,
the language we speak,
the culture we were brought up with,
and the roots of our family...
Whereas,
"Bangsa" does not look only at all the above,
but looks at the one thing we share in our diversity,
being a MALAYSIAN...

When he said that,
Time seemed to stop for a while,
to give me sometime to think,
reflect,
and let those words sink in...
I was shocked,
or more like in Awe by the answer he gave,
and after those few moments of thinking,
I just Couldnt Agree more...

This was the exact thing my brother once told me...
He said we are first Malaysians,
then Chinese,
or Malay,
or Indian,
or whatever race we are...
After this lesson,
it became more clear on what he said...

Malaysia is a blessed and special land....
After all the recent things happening in Malaysia,
it is sad,
but it is clear that living together in so such diversity isnt easy,
in fact,
it's a Challenge....
But we cant stop trying,
for the minute we do stop trying,
we lose the whole point of our land Malaysia....

So,
let us not focus too much on the "Kaum",
which shows how different we are...
But,
let us focus more on the "Bangsa"
which reminds us of the Significant thing we share,
being a MALAYSIAN....

I'm Proud to be One...
Are you?

Do U tRuLLy?

2010-01-10T18:17:00.004+08:00

When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter,

"Simon son of John, do you trully love me more than this?"

"Yes, Lord," he said, "you know I love you."

Jesus said, "Feed my lambs."

John 21:15-17

Seeing many blogs and stuff,
People writing about the new year,

About new year resolutions and stuff...

And there I was again,

thinking hard on what i should write to usher in the new year....

But instead of just oozing my brains for ideas,

I also thought and didnt want to write just for it's sake of writing only....

Last Saturday,

since there was no Ablaze,

we went over to join the Ignite service...

PAstor John spoke today on John 21....

While he shared i could sense it was directly from his heart,

I was really encouraged...

And during the sharing,

it dawned upon me about what I would like to do to kick start my year....

The thing that really spoke to me the most is these few words....

"Do You Love me MORE THAN THIS?"

"Do YOu TRULLY Love me MORE THAN THIS?"

As I begin this new year,

I want to start it by challenging myself about Love,

Do I really Trully LOVe Jesus More than anything?

KaWanKu..

2009-12-22T23:29:00.002+08:00

We were in my Uni's aquarium and i was looking at some Fish,

DUH,

What else to look at in an aquarium rite?

Hehe,

Well,

Like i said,

was looking at some fishes,

and then dear Sze ying came tugging my hand,

"Kor Kor Paulus, come come, look look!!!!"

She brought me to one of the tank and this was what i saw....

I was staring at it a while and just before i could think of anything,

Sze Ying:" Look Kor Kor Paulus, they are like Best Friends, giggle giggle giggle!!!"

I laughed and smiled not only because the way she said it was so funny,

but I totally agreed on the picture's message....

I just HAD to take a picture....

Friends, FRIENDS....

It's such a treasure and desire and NEED for all humanity....

Myself personally,

I've looked,

I've searched,

I've craved,

I've done stupid stuff,

for FRIENDS,

to be able to have them...

When i was younger,

it was like life and death...

Companionship was SUper important to me,

till a point where i could DIE...

And many times,

I admit,

that sometimes it happens to me still up to this day...

But more than quatity I look to the QUALITY of a Friendship...

To me,

I always believe friends are not just people you hang out with,

you spend time with,

you do stuff together with,

you share a common interest,

but as much as all mentioned,

is a friend that SHARES his LIFE with me...

These are friends I hold dearly,

so dearly to me...

They are the ones I really am encouraged by...

And honestly speaking,

I would not be able to move on in life without friends like these...

For the past year,

God has really been teaching me about learning to trust in Him,

and at camp,

he reminded me about how I should not be so influenzed and controlled by the desire of friends too much...

I'm learning...

BUt still,

Friends mean so much to me,

And i wont deny it...

It's just how GOd made me,

a guys who desires to

Connect,

Share,

and Go Through Life with....

I thank God for each of YOU!!!!

U tHeRe, U DaRe??

2009-12-17T00:02:00.002+08:00

Praise God!!!
Praise Him for another camp...
This is my 7th one so far...
And till now,
I've never regretted going any one of them....
I mean,
people can say it's the same camp over and over again,
but then I always believe it's the attitude behind it,
it's how one approaches the camp...

THis year,
i thank God for the opportunity to be part of the committee...
It was hard work,
but it sure paid off...
I learnt so much,
struggled so much,
and believe that now,
I HAVE COME OUT STRONGER...
God really taught me a lot through this experience,
I was STRECTHED....

But apart from the challenge of preparing the camp this year,
God still challenged me....
He challenged me in many ways but mainly in 2 areas...

Firstly is when Pastor Daniel talked about fitting in,
about not wanting to feel rejected and by succumbing to peer pressure just so we can fit in....
He challenged all of us about how we should not cling on so tightly on the world's acceptance,
but on GOD...
HOnestly, this has been and still is one of the biggest struggles of my life...
I struggle so much to want people to accept me especially in my younger days that many times i dont realize i still do it now...
Sigh,
It's indeed a sad part of my life...
Many times even now,
I still just do things just so i can blend in with those close to me,
even though i dont really like to do those things...
BUt for this whole year,
God has been challenging me to find who i really am....
And be who He made me to be,
camp was an important reminder and confirmation on that...
As much as it is hard to overcome this,
In HIm I can DO ALL THINGS....

The second thing was when Aunty Dorcas prayed for me...
The challenge or Word for me was to bring the presence of GOd with me wherever I go,
and how do we do so?
We bring the presence of God when we learn to FEAR GOD....
My prayer is that more and more I would be able to bring God's presence whever I go to be able to usher his kingdom into places and people who are yet to be touched by HIm....

Overall,
I had loads of fun,
and it was fruitful,
apart from ministry and messages,
another thing i look forward to so much during camp is Friends,
and not just FRiends,
but Brothers and Sisters from all over the country that loves GOd....
To me,
being together with a brother or a sister in Christ just refreshes me....
Not only those from different towns,
but also those from Kluang...
It is just a relationship that gives me such goosebumps that trully is really really dear to me...
And I thank God for making new friends....
I pray we will continue to spur one another up for His Kingdom and HIS SAKE....

aBSence...

2009-12-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

Yup, it's been a while since I've updated my blog,
Funny,
have been back over two weeks now,
and some how I cant think of anything to write...

I did mention to myself before that I wont "pressure" myself to write...
If I get something,
I write,
If not,
Dont lor....

To me blogging isn't my best thing and it isnt priority,
Hehe,
Yup,
But will see,
it has been great to be back,
and it's gonna be a great December ahead...

Oh, Lord, take me through it YOUR WAY...

wHAt wOuLD YOu DO?

2009-11-17T17:42:00.006+08:00

HAha, i know it's kinda obvious rite?
Just finished my papers today....
WOOHOO!!!!
So i decided to catch a movie with my course mates...
We decided we wanted to watch the latest movie,
and so this was our choice...
I heard some reviews about it already from Gid,
and thought of it as just another movie to relax and enjoy the action and effects and see how Hollywood would imagine the end of the world...
I didnt expect much from the movie,
I went in expecting entertainment,
and left convicted and challenged....

This is one of the best movie's i watched this year....
It wasnt so much about the effects or the plot of the story,
nor is it the action and the excitement of the movie,
but it was the content of the movie,
the MESSAGE it brought to me personally as well as it was bringing to the world....

Personally:

One of the two things that hit me the most during the show is the love of a Father... Countless time during the show, was how the father would do everything he can, even his life to save his child.... Now come to think of it, it was so weird that they didnt show much of the mother's response... Dont get me wrong, i know the depths of a mother's love for the family and her children, but somehow, the father's of the show are highlighted so much that it led me to questioning whether that would be what i would do for my child.... One of the Father's main role in the family is to PROTECT.... That was the role so clearly seen there... I kept asking myself, can i do that too?

I've never always dreamt I would be a father, but then recently, I had this desire to be one and it was pretty strong... And today, seeing how the those father gave their whole self into protecting their family especailly their kids, made me really ponder and challenge myself to reach that level.... Because I know that before I can ever think about starting a family at all, that is a level of love I have to reach, that is a standard i have to follow, it's like GOd the Father, his love was so great, he gave his ALL, his only begotten son to die for us and like him, that is the model i desire to follow...

Can i be that father? I cant answer that, but I can say, that I am on the journey of learning to be one...

Generally:

The whole story I would sum up would be selfish love, or selfless love.... In the movie, everyone wanted to live, reality, who wants to die rite? I know selfish love sounds a bit ridiculous and impossible but i would define it as love that is shown only when you are comfortable... Such love involves loving oneself and those around that are easy.... Such love will never stand when there is trials or hardship, like the movie, love like that was shown when they found out the world was ending, there only loved or did things with love when convenient, and whenever their life was treathened, it was their own lives first before others.... Such isnt true love...

Like in 1 Corinthians 13, love is not selfish... It is selfless.... Regardless of the situation we face, love still exists and never dies if it is selfless... In the movie, everyone showed the selfish love at first but at the end, one man was convicted which led to a twist in the show where it ended with selflessness....

"The moment we stop fighting for one another, it is when we lose our humanity"...

There were a few times when i was so moved by the movie, i wanted to cry but i manage to hold back.... But after this was said, I teared... This was the CLIMAX of the story.... This was the MESSAGE of the movie... Whatever happens, Jesus set an example of true love by dying for us so that we may live...

In the bible it speaks about putting others before one self and that itself can sum up what love really is...

Like the title says, that was the question I asked myself.... What would I do if i were them? For now, I can say that most likely i would have just tried to save my own lives and the others I hold dear to me.... BUt GOd challenged me to dive deeper.... To redefine love in my life... And such love is just impossible, really impossible.....

BUt all things are possible in Christ rite???

Wow, it is a movie i encourage everyone to watch this movie...

It will really really teach you and challenge you....

kNiGht R-I-D-E-R

2009-11-12T10:53:00.003+08:00

Oh Man,

Cant seem to get better pics of this...

Sigh, this will have to do...

Dont really do movie or show previews

(that's Gideon's job),

Haha,

Anywayz,

Have been watching Knight Rider series....

Actually didnt think much of it...

I know there was an older version,

but my first time watching was in Jit's house....

It was ok la,

I really loved the car,

but the whole show looked kinda boring,

so didnt bother about it much....

BUt then later I gave it a try....

IT WAS NICE!!!

Hehe....

2 things I love about the movie,

one like I've mentioned,

THE CAR!!!

WOW,

A Mustang wei...

I may not know much about cars,

but I know I would dream and drool over a car like that,

the features of the car itself already is a magnet to all guys around...

I love the way it transforms although it reminds me a lot about TRANSFORMERS...

Hehe...

Exactly the same transformation style...

BUt the second thing I love is the advance High-tech things they do...

Seeing how the agents hack into computer systems,

into security cameras,

into networks,

phone lines,

and how they use Artificial Intelligence to crack cases....

To me,

IT's SO COOL....

HAha....

To some extend i wish i was a hacker...

YOu sEE tHE dEPtHs Of mY HEaRt aNd YOu LOvE mE tHE samE...

2009-11-05T14:42:00.007+08:00

INDESCRIBABLE

Chris Tomlin

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creations revealing your majesty
From the colours of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable;
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and give source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable;
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

I really love this song,
it's one of my favourite songs....
I so happen to be listening to it last night during devotion...
This time I was listening to a different version...
It was by Passion...
And some how suddenly I heard something, and I realized something....
GOd was showing and telling me something...
Indescribable God,
He is indeed indescribable but
not only He made the sun, moon and stars,
not only becaused He created the seas and the mountains,
not only because He created every season summer, spring, autumn and winter,
not only becasue He was the Creator of all things,
but this time I saw something more than all that,
why He is INdescribable,
is because
HE LOVES US just the same
even though He knows the
DEPTHS of our HEARTS....

When I heard that,
I was like WOW,
Even though you know how evil we can be
Even though you know how we as your creation will betray you
Even though you know how we cling a lot to our selfish desires
Even though you know how we will fail you
Even though you know so much about who we are,
knowing how much we do not deserve You,
You still by your grace and mercy,
LOVE US STILL THE SAME....

Think of it,
how many of us after,
knowing all the dark secrets and shocking truths about a friend,
after seeing and knowing the depths our their hearts
can still love them,
holding nothing back from them?
But loving them STILL THE SAME?
I CANT...

"Incomparable, unchangeable,
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same;
You are amazing God,
You are amazing God.."

Indeed Lord,
You are amazing GOd,
Thank YOU for loving me just the SAME even by knowing the DEPTHS of my HEART..
You are trully Amazing...

An ORdinARy SUndAy... An X-tRAORdinARy inCident... And A LeSSOn LeARnt...

2009-11-03T17:21:00.001+08:00

Well, like i said it was just like any Sunday,
Sitting in City mall's Big Apple,
with a drink and my computer...
And then it was time to pick Christine from the airport....
So off I went with Esther to the car....
And to my greatest shock,
THE CAR WOULDN't START!!!!
Honestly, i started to panic....
What was worse,
the alarm started to go on and the car locks went crazy....
I WAS LIKE,"AHHH!!!!"
Though it was a scream i did in my heart and didnt let out....
I also was asking GOd what to do now...
Well, Esther and I tried and tried but couldnt do anything,
something was wrong....
Esther then gave me Melvyn and Joshua's phone to contact them since she said they lived nearby anyway....
I was a bit "pai seh" at first since I didnt know them as well,
but i was desperate....
I CALLED!!!!
I didnt know how to put into words,
but I just spoke la,
Joshua who was on the phone with me agreed instantly to come....
In less than 5 minutes,
they came...
I was like WOW....
They then helped check on the car and found out about the battery of Christine's car to have "dried up"....
Josh then called Eric who had jumper cables and he too immediately responded and came within 5 minutes too....
WOW again...
He then linked the jumper cables from his car to Christine's...
And after a few minutes,
it started...
PRAISE GOD....
Whew....
I thanked them and rushed to the airport to pick Christine...
I too thought that was the end of the Episode....
But then, just after about 100 metres,
I came to a U turn, and just as I was about to enter the U turn,
the car stopped AGAIN!!!
I screamed softly again "AHHH!!!!"
NOT NOW, in the middle of a busy road....
BUt God does work in wondrous ways...
Eric and Josh was just behind us....
This time, it was more challenging as there were cars honking us and stuff...
I was praying like so hard man....
This time it took longer than usual....
And finally the car started up in 10 over minutes....
This time Josh drove the car with Esther and I went with Eric....

Yup, indeed an ordinary sunday turned EXTRAordinay because of this incident,
Lesson LEARNT???
Well,
basically two lessons....

1. I felt very helpless that time when I just didnt know what was going on with the car... And even when Josh and Eric were there to help, I didnt even know WHAT TO DO... In a way I was very disappointed with myself that I didnt know what to do, I didnt know how... I didnt know why.... Sigh, that was when I challenged myself, or i think it was more of GOD challenging me to not be so layed back anymore, if I can learn something, i SHOULD... I should be more deligent into looking into learning and acquiring skills and knowledge.... I just want to increase my general knowledge... I MUST LEARN TO PUSH MYSELF... And like Pastor shared the Sunday itself to learn to COME OUT of my COMFORT ZONE... I wouldnt call myself a spoilled child, but I wouldnt consider myself as a very handy guy either... I need to be like what Russell Peter says.... BE A MAN!!

2. But the second thing was about ONE BODY.... I thank God for the family he's given me here.... Like Pastor shared before, whever I go, I HAVE FAMILY, because of CHRIST.... In such times of helplessness and need, they are always there willing to help... That night, Eric, Melvyn and Joshua had a birthday celebration and they not only sacrificed their time and effort, but I sensed so strongly they did it with such a WILLING HEART to come all this way to help a guy they barely know.... They responded without hesitation, they also never blamed me or said I was taking their time, They NEVER mentioned anything like that but came helping me with a smile... I could see so clearly that they cared, since the first thing they did was ask about me and console me that it was normal to face such incidents... In the car with Eric, he kept telling me it was normal and was so patient into telling me a few basics about how to start a car and what to do during such situations.... I said thanks, and he kept saying "No Prob" with a smile which helped me feel so much better at that situation.... Even Pastor John called me during that time to see whether I was ok, and kept calling to ask about the situation.... It's not that I dont know about the loving family of GOd, but somehow, when we are really are in the situation, that the THEORY we learnt becomes a reality that you get such a revelation that now, YOUR WHOLE BEING, not only your mind knows what it trully means.... And that is when we Trully LEARN a LESSON....

I was very touched by them and I thank GOd so much for them.... I dont know what else to say but Thanks, and I pray that we would be able to grow closer as a family to continue to help each other during this JOURNEY OF LIFE.....

ALoNe? LoNeLiNess? soLituDe? WIFI?

2009-11-01T16:13:00.003+08:00

It's another Sunday...
And I'm once again "Feeding" off someone's WIFI...
HAha, but am legally feeding k....
Last time was Starbucks,
and then Old Town,
and today am at BIG APPLE...
So tempted to have a donut...
Hehe....
Yup,
this is how i go through Sundays...
Just God,
me,
My lappy-top,
and
a drink....
It's really relaxing and a great way to spend the Sundays....
But of course this is only if I am all alone for the sundays...
IF there's someone to accompany me,
or if there's some event I've got to attend,
then yup,
you know the rest of the story....

But such times are indeed treasure...
Being in Uni,
there is hardly anytime for you to sit down and stop worrying about stuff around...
Even if you have the time,
some thing or someone will always come in the picture,
and that time of "silence" is disrupted....
NOt blaming those things la...
In fact I love to do stuff,
and I definitely love spending time with PEOPLE....
But we just have to find some time to sit down,
relax,
reflect,
blog,
use internet,
chat with buddies and family back home....
Like what someone once told me,
it's not good to leave in loneliness,
but then it's always good to find time to be alone,
with both yourself(REFLECTION),
and with GOD(PRAYER),
especially in such BUsy busy times of our era....

To me it's really refreshing....
To both Mind and Spirit....
Priase gOd for times like this...

19 days more PAulus....
19!!!! Woohoo...
Cant wait...

SettLiNG DoWn

2009-10-20T19:48:00.004+08:00

Well,
It has been long since I've last updated Bloggy....
Hehe...
2 reasons in particular ba,
1 is because the school line like you know it bad...
SERIOUSLY BAD!!!
Well, we cant help it since it feeds into 6000 over laptops each day...
Haha....
And the other reason is just because I'm plain lazy sometimes and cant rake the time up to write something...
As the saying goes:
"There's no such thing as NO TIME,
we need to MAKE TIME",
but for now,
blogging isnt a priority...
Yup, anywayz,
God indeed have been gracious,
Have not been feeling homesick much anymore..
Hehe, Am learning to enjoy my Uni life to the FULLEST HERE...
Here are some things I've been up too....

Yup, that's a Kimono... During one of the weeks, I saw this advert up offering photography sessions on Kimonos... I've always thought it was cool la... Hehe, So Since a bunch of my friends were heading there,
I decided to join them, I didnt regret the experience, It was fun to see how I looked like as a Naruto Character, Haha... Dont I look a lil like Neji?? And by the way, Kimono's are for both guys and girls if any of you were wondering....

One of the subjects I took during this sem is APPRECIATING ART... It was actually a quite a boring subject, till we had our PERFORMANCE nite.... During that nite we have to do anything relating to the performing arts, which will stand about 40% of our entire course for the sem, my group chose to do a musical drama... That nite was pretty exciting, it was my first time being in theatres, with the lightings, the huge stage and the costumes... Thank God our drama went well... But the whole nite was really unique... Being able to see different people showing their different talents in dancing, singing and acting... It changed my whole opinion on this subject...

No I am not becoming more Japanese, Haha, but then Sushi King was on offer, so off we went, a total of 20 of us to just treat ourselves with those rice balls... It wasnt great la, now I know why my brother despised that place... HAha, but then the experience and fellowship with my fellow course mates was great...

THis is my favourite class... ENGLISH... NO, it's not that i love the subject but it's actually the teacher... He is an amazing lecturer, one that I look up to... He is not a go-by-book teacher, but one who teaches with his heart... While teaching, he would tell us stories and jokes and life experiences to teach us more than the subject, more than education, more than head knowledge, but to teach us how to survive.... Love him wei, we all do... To me, he is a bench mark for all lecturers to follow, that is what I call a teacher who trully has a passion for TEACHING....

This are only a quarter of my course mates, but they are the closer bunch to me... They are the ones that are usually there when there are activities.... Though this is my second family day, i just dont want to miss an oppotunity to bond and discover new friendships... Being a guy that easily forgets CHINESE names, hehe, i took the effort to get to know each one of their names here... Hopefully by the end of the 3 years here I would be able to name them all... But thank God for that day, we trully had a great time... Was thrown into the sea again, but who cares if it only draws friends together....

3 more weeks and I've finished this sem,

WOW,

I really cant believe it,

but time trully flies when you are having fun...

BUt I also look forward lots to going back and to the end year activities...

WHEEEE....

FOr now, have to study hard for finals....

Thank GOd trully for not only helping me to settle down more,

but also being so real to me through his Word and his Peace...

THANK HIM FOR HIS FAITHFULNESS!!!

CLimBiNG tHE moUNtaiN of LIFE....

2009-10-07T16:58:00.004+08:00

As I was climbing Mount K,

I was taught and reminded a thing or two about life...

Life is a mountain,

and what keeps us going?

Hope,

Like climbing mount K,

my hope was to reach the peak,

that was my goal,

my dream,

my DESTINATION...

I actually did not think it was gonna be that difficult,

since I conquered it before when I was seven...

BUt the climb was challenging,

it was difficult...

MAn I have sore feet now...

Haha...

There were a few moments while climbing,

that I thought to myself,

What on earth am I striving here for?

What the, how come still got so far to go?

YOU SURE I can reach there?

GOSH!!!!

But as I pressed on,

one step at a time,

and when I reached the top,

My, my, my...

The view was Simply AMAZING....

When I got to that point,

the stiving,

the pain,

the panting,

even my sore leg now,

was worth it...

IT WAS INDEED WORTH THE CLIMB...

Lesson?

Life is as such,

there are points in life that we just wanna give up,

that we think why on earth lord?

WHY? WHY am I DOING THIS?

The Mountain is so so BIG!!

HOW CAN I CONQUER IT?

Why ARENT I THERE YeT?

But Like the Word says,

if we stay faithful to HIM,

taking ONE STEP at a time,

the end would be breath-taking,

it would be MARVELLOUS,

it will be

WORTH IT....

To those who are going through life's toughest times,

let it be a reminder,

to persevere,

to stay strong,

and to stay faithful,

and when the end comes,

when the dawn arrives,

the LIGHT will overcome the DARKNESS....

a TRiButE tO mY aH KonG...

2009-09-30T15:22:00.004+08:00

The funeral just ended...
It is the last time I will be able to see him in his "shell",

but I praise God for meeting with him,

that now I know,

though it is the last on earth,

It isnt the last at all...

For I will see him again,

some day,

with a smile on his face,

to welcome me HOME....

Some day, Some day....

M SoRRiE...

2009-09-23T17:56:00.003+08:00

This might sound weird and all,
But,
I just want to say sorry to everyone...
Here's why,
It's great being back la...
I always look forward to it....
I always look forward to seeing everyone back home,
Hanging out and catching up with you guys is trully something I will never get tired of doing....
Note that when I say no to somethng,
It's not because i dont want to go out with you guys,
it's not because i dont want to go for a Counter Strike game with you guys,
it's not that I have no time for you guys...
Yaya, i know we have to make time,
But please know that I am struggling to be able to make time with everyone...
If I could,
I would always say yes to every invitation you guys give to me...
BUt reality is,
I CANT!!!!
Why?
Well, it's just hard to explain...
So even for this trip,
and for any future times we have,
please do note it is indeed a joy to be able to be around you guys...
I would not miss building a friendship,
But I do do hope you guys will understand too....
That everytime you ask me,
I would try my very very best to go....
And every time i cant make it,
everytime there's a no,
It's because I Trully trully cant...
So,
I just wan to say sorry to those who think i just dont want to give them time...
I ask only for this from you as a friend,
that you help me by understanding and trusting me,
whenever I give a NO.....
Thanks, Love you guys lots...

Failure Vs. FailinG...

2009-09-10T20:33:00.002+08:00

Failure in
an exam,
a task,
a competition,
a job,
a mission,
in fulfilling a responsibility,
in accomplishing something...

FAILURE, is hard enough to handle....
But you know what I realized today?

Failure in something,
isn't as bad as
FAILING a person...

Failing
a partner,
your teammates,
your group...

Failing
your parents,
your siblings,
YOur family...

Failing
a friend,
a pal,
a brother,
or sister...

Failing
a person that means a lot to you,
people you love so much,
those closest to your heart...

The Heartache that comes with it,
the pain of not being able to do anything,
and the sore you feel
whenever you just try to do better,
but cant seem to move beyond that...

EVer felt that way before???

a WaLk tO r3m3mB3r...

2009-09-02T10:18:00.005+08:00

It was NAtional Day,
And my plan was to just study at Christine's place since I've got the whole house to myself...
I just had a bad week last week...
Was struggling with myself and God and the new environment...
Was feeling "lonely" for the whole week...
And I finally admit was feeling SUPER HOME SICK...
I was better and on the road to recovery that day...

While I was studying though,
an sms came,
and so I went to the beach....
Esther wanted to have some fresh air at the beach...
I saw myself doing a favour for her as Phang Cheng, herself and me went together to Teluk Likas...

Somehow,
I believed God planned that trip for me...
As I walked on the sandy beaches,
it was actually quite a dirty beach...
But then,
AT LEAST THERE's a beach to walk one rite?
Hehe...
While walking,
feeling the sand on my feet,
HEaring the waters splash against the shores,
feeling the sea breeze on your face,
and my favourtie one,
seeing the Sun set beyond the horizon...

I was like WOW...
Wow....
WOW!!!
Thank you Lord for bringing me here...
Somehow I feel closer to you whenever I am here...
Seeing the sun set,
reminds me of YOU looking down on me,
Watching over me...

Though I am going through a rough patch in life...
Thank you for being EMMANUEL,
GOd with us,
GOD with ME...
Keeping me,
Preserving me, Training me,
Growing me
and LOVING ME....

It was indeed a Walk TO REMEMBER
the WONDER<
the Awesome-ness,
and
the BEAUTY
of MY GOD....

I know it might soung late...
But HAPPY BIRTHDAY MALAYSIA!!!!
LOVE YOU MALAYSIA...

Whatever people say about you,
I believe that in CHRIST,
ALL things are possible,
MALAYSIA MESTI BOLEH!!!

wiZe sAYinGs...

2009-08-29T16:30:00.005+08:00

An encouraging, meaningful and METAphorical conversation:

The WISE one:
"Maybe it might not be wat u have here in klg
but hey,
its gonna to be a whole new growing up processs for u bro
new ppl,
new challenges,
when u are weak
thats when God is strong....."

"Step out of your comfort zone,
it takes time for friendships to grow....."

Pingu:
"I am just being an impatient penguin that's all
hehehe..."

The WISE one:
"True true,
*spank*!!
as same species,
have to teach u how to be more patient,
when its no longer an igloo u are staying in
but a tropical land God put u in now..."

Pingu:
(Speechless and amazed at the wisdom of the WISE one)

The WISE one:
"Haha
no worries,
penguin have very high adaptation
and most importantly,
they have a pure and warm heart despite the coldness around them,
u will do fine
*hugs*
owh hrm,
sum correction to the metaphore,
before this u are living in igloo
now Daddy brought u out of igloo into the snow-capped land,
walking on iceberg,
tats why u felt cold

Pingu:
"WOW(even more AMAZED....)"

The WISE one:
"But tats exactly wat ur fats around ur tummy are for
lol..
well tats what i learnt,
and which u will learn
as u take a step out into the world
ha...."

I am trully blessed to have friends who would come into my life to encourage and strengthen me with God's word...
After all, a friend in NEED is a friend INDEED...
Thanks to WISE PENGUIN, HAHA...

hOmE... A gooD rEsT....

2009-08-23T15:43:00.003+08:00

Well, after a weeks break back home,
I am back in Uni again....
Thank GOd for the fruitful week he gave me in Kluang..
Spending time with
my parents,
my siblings,
Aunty Vicky,
My Grandma,
My Ah Kong,
My cousins,
My Uncles and Aunties,
and
Yam chaing with friends....
IT has been refreshing....
Being able to catch up and hang out....
HOme is just so nice....
Well,
being back here makes me more homesick then when I came here for the first time....
Must be the symptoms of home...
My dear comfort zone...
Wont be able to be back for at least 3 months....

Thank you Lord for everyone back home...
Call me weird or anything,
but i already miss you guys...
Looking forward to being back again...

But as for now,
teach me to move forward in you...

SickLy...

2009-08-11T17:59:00.002+08:00

WHoa...
Finally I am hit...
My first time getting sick in Sabah...
I hate it man....
Haha....
BUt It has been the quickest recovery I've ever experienced...
It happened yesterday when I had fried chicken chop rice for lunch....
It was really good, Uncle BOb's chicken,
I then was so tempted to have an ice-cream so I had a double cone....
Right that nite, I was starting to feel phlegm and a little sore at my throat....
Went for a youth leader's prayer meeting at Pastor John's house....
During prayer I asked GOd for healing...
The funny thing is after prayer, I only felt the burn coming on my head and was feeling dizzy...
I was like what is god trying to tell me? Hmmmm...
And I was so worried... Cause I'll be so busy this week and I cant afford to fall sick now...
ANd if I really fall really sick,
am I to skip classes since the H1N1 is so widely feared in my school...
I just prayed and told God that I will just trust him...
Before I slept,
I had 10 over slices of oranges,
a panadol,
a Vitamin C Redoxon drink,
and
3 litres of 100 plus...
Thank GOd, the next morning I felt much better,
Went to class and after that,
Went back to sleep from 11 till 3...
Thank God that I am much better now...
He is good...

seNDiRi PerAsAN...

2009-08-05T15:37:00.003+08:00

Ya, ya I know...

Call me perasan or something...

I accept it....

Cause I really am for this post....

Haha....

Well, sometimes while doing work,

YOu tend to get bored,

yup,

I was bored...

And so I was just playing around with my computer and exploring...

Then I just manage to switch on my webcam,

and i saw myself in the computer...

Ya,

so I just smiled and snap,

smiled and SNAP....

Hehe....

It's pretty fun actually...

YOu should try it sometime...

Haha...
The rest will be on facebook....

hehe....

pERuBaHaN..

2009-07-24T08:00:00.006+08:00

"Don't just change enough to get away from your problems;

change enough to SOLVE it.

Don't just change your circumstances to improve your life;

change yourself to IMPROVE circumstances.

Don't do the same things expecting different results;

get different results by doing something NEW.

Don't see change as something hurtful that must be done;

see it as something helpful that CAN be done.

Don't avoid paying the immediate price tag of change;

if you do, you will pay the ULTIMATE PRICE OF NEVER IMPROVING."

Dr John Maxwell

This was part of my quiet time today,

It's a very meaningful, true yet scary TRUTH to face...

I am not writing this because I've learnt to accomplish that,

IN FACT,

it's the direct opposite...

Change, Sigh,

AHHHHH!!!!!

CHANGE, DOUBLE SIGH....

Change to me is such a big TABOO word...

Deep down, I can say I HATE change,
whether is because of my personality,

or watever,

deep down I resent change...

I just dislike it lar...

I love my life the way it is...

Back home,

my routine is fun, cool, enjoyable and satisfying...

Dont you ever touch my routine or I'll BITE!!!

Hehe...

That's me lar...

I just give one simple example,

Sports back home to me is an untouchable time...

4pm till 7pm,

I just have to be at sports during that time...

It's one of the peek moments of my week,

where I get to not only exercise,

but be able to spend time and catch on different people I get to meet there...

Sigh,

i do LOVE those times...

I get quite upset when something crops up during that time and I have to forgo sports...

Last time, whenever it rained during a Sunday afternoon,

I would be so super angry cursing the rain...

Haha,

though I am better at it now,

I can admit I still struggle to accept change...

And today, the challenge is not only to acccept it,

BUT PURSUE IT...

Wow,

This is super tough to me,

It's a real challenge to me,

especially now that my entire "back home" routine has changed COMPLETELY...

God has been gracious though,

I didnt expect myself to survive till this today...

I was expecting depression and ultra-homesickness...

BUt some how God has helped me pull through...

Am reminded again that GROWTH is crucial...

Either you GROW, or DETERIORATE...

This is reality,

We live in a world that changes with TIME...

HOw then can we continue to stay the 'same' to live in "this TIME",

sooner or later we will be "outdated"...

I dont mean change according to the world...

I mean CHANGE From Glory to Glory in CHRIST...

A CHANGE of HEart from day to day...

And how do we do it?

Ask the Lord...

"CREATE IN ME A CLEAN HEART; OH GOD, AND RENEW A RIGHT SPIRIT WIHTIN ME."

Psalm 51:10

Only He can help change a person,

Only He has the power to Change you and ME...

But it starts with a CHOICE....

DO we want to CHANGE when God asks us to?

Do we want to at least LEARN to step out of our COMFORT ZONE?

Or do we want to just be SUBBORN???

It's super hard...

I know,

Am struggling myself....

But only when we decide to surrender ourselves to GOd's CHANGE,

will we see wonders in our life,

Only then can we become effective,

Only then we will learn to TRULLY LIVE...

ONLY WHEN WE CHANGE,

can we

CHANGE THE WORLD!!!!!

Psalm 124...

2009-07-21T13:05:00.002+08:00

I LIFT MY EYES UP

Brian Doerksen

Verse:

I lift my eyes up

to the mountains

where does my help come from,

My help comes from you

Maker of heaven

Creator of the earth;

Chorus:
Oh how I need you Lord

You are my only hope

You're my only prayer,

So I will wait for you,

to come and rescue me

come and give me life.

This is an amazing song,

Especially at this point of time in my life,

It speaks about who I can turn to whenever I need help,

whenever i Need ANYTHING...

What's more, my window faces Mount Kinabalu,

which makes it much more 'applicable' and meaningful to me,

especially when I can see the sun rising from behind the mountains each morning...

The sun indeed reminds me of the Glory of God,

and as each new day comes,

His Mercies Are New Every MOrning...

I am going through i period of time where I am seriously out of my comfort zone...

I could even say I hate being taken out of the security I was in before...

But through this,

I believe GOd is helping me to learn to rely on HIm totally...

Someone told me that I am like the Israelites,

who went in the wilderness for 40 years,

as God wanted them to realise who their God is,

and to learn to rely and depend on Him totally...

Back home,

I have super loving parents,

I had my siblings around,

I have Aunty Vicky who cared so much for me,

I have my Grandma and Aunties and Uncles,

I have all my cousins who are close to me,

I have my friends espcially those who are in Yf who I've established such a deep relationship with,

and that kept me going and helped me look forward each week when I was back home,

I loked forward to weekends especially,

where it was a time of building relationships with each one...

BUt now,

God 'took' that away from me,

I'm still learning to make friends,

and even the friends I meet just arent the same as back home...

The relationship isn't there yet,

My greatest struggle now is not experiencing the close knitted relationships I had back home,

the sense of security,

comfort,

THE LOVE...

It was easy being me,

being who I am and not being afraid of not being accepted...

Now, it's all different...

Everything that I hold so dear,

is a "SOUTH CHINA SEA" apart...

BUt the story doesnt end by saying I am DEPRESSED...

HEhe,

I am actually fine...

In fact,

I am better than I ever expected,

and It has nothing to do with me,

and ALL TO DO WITH GOD...

He is the one sustaining me here...

I do have lots of down times,

I do have lots of home sick moments,

but then,

God has placed me here in the wilderness,

IT's MY TIME TO LEARN TO TRUST IN HIM...

EcoNoMics... Part 1(selfishness)

2009-07-09T11:01:00.005+08:00

Am in the campus library now,
It's the best place in Uni for internet connection and comfort...
Hehe,
anywayz,
just finished my first Economics class...
So far, of all the classes,
I would say I enjoy this class the most so far....
The lecturer is so cool,
He has this amazing Indian accent when he teaches,
He's also quite funny and he makes his class as interesting and interactive as possible...
Being introduced to Economics for the first time(never taken economics as a subject before),
I found out now that it is actually a lot to do with common sense...

Definition for Economics:
"It's a social study on how individuals or institutions and society make optimal choices under conditions of scarcity"

To put it simply,
Economics,
is a study of
HOW PEOPLE MAKE CHOICES....

When the lecturer was giving examples and giving us a first day introduction to subject,
something HIT me into thinking(Yes, I was still paying attention to the lesson)....
The Comic of Calvin and Hobbes(which is one of my favorite comics btw) above speaks a thousand words to what really HIT me during class....

I personally believe everyone is a great Economist...
Why?
Because we are all born as selfish beings on this earth....
We crave for what we want,
we get frustrated, angry and bitter when we cant get it...
Most of the times we have a hidden agenda or motive into doing something....
This in economic terms is called,
Marginal Analysis...
People analyze on what they can obtain if they buy a certain product,
or if they invest in a certain company,
or even if they do something for a friend....
It is all the selfish nature of a human being...
We are taught in class that Never ever let the Cost(sacrifice) be greater than the Benefit(fruit)...

So my question is this...
Is hidden motive fully a bad thing??
Aren't we all driven by something in order to do something??
It's like the law of linear motion, without any force applied to a certain object,
it stays at an unchanged position,
but only with a push, will it move...
Then don't we humans need a "push" too??
To a certain extend selfishness is bad....
But is there a certain level of "selfishness" that moves it into the Grey area??
Hmmmm....

I will only post my response in part 2...
Feel free to help me....
Hehe...
God Bless...

a GLimpse oF LiFe

2009-07-04T14:30:00.005+08:00

Beyond the horizon lies my destination for now...

Oh Lord, what will I find there???

Yup, it is by the beach and facing MOunt KK...

Good feng sui, according to the lecturer, Haha....

I think Phang Cheng's got his first "star", Hehe,

UMS have their own aquarium...

See the sea of yellow-coloured-batik-wearing people...

The hall can sit around 5000 people, cool place to hold a concert....

We had riadah on the second last nite, aerobics lar...

This is one of my favourite....

For the last nite there was performances by the Art faculty...

It was great actually....

This is the traditional Iban dance....

w3LcoM3 tO 5aBaH

2009-07-03T13:19:00.002+08:00

Woohoo...
Thank God I finally got the line...
Well,
Really doesn't seem like it,
really cant believe it,
But Uni LIFE has indeed started for me...
Well, how do I feel after a week???
Well, It's a mixture of emotions, really...
I actually kinda like the place,
(wont say love first)....
The orientation, a lot of the taklimats, to be honest, it is SUPER BORING....
And also my dorm is in a really bad state....
Other than that, I like my Uni,
It's by the beach and faces the mountain too...
The people here especially the locals are really friendly....
The seniors here are also really really helpful....
WOuldn't survive without them around to help, guide and advice me...
The facilities here is super cool too...
There's an aquarium, there's rock climbing,
and the Biggest rounded shaped hall compared to other U's is here too....
Well, as for Uni life, hmmmm....
Am actually getting used to it...
Hand-washing your own clothes and stuff like that...
But am enjoying it,
just that I do also miss Kluang and everyone back home...
this would be the biggest challenge for me la...
Not being able to see the people dearest to me as often as i can anymore...
but Thank God for Phang Cheng...
At least there's someone here to make me feel that home is not too far away...
hehe....
And I also thank God, he has really blessed me in so many ways...
the walks back to my hostel talking to him really is amazing....
To everyone back home,

MISSING YOU GUYS....

DO PRAY FOR ME,

THAT GOD WILL SUSTAIN ME AND HELP ME SEE AND FULFILL MY PURPOSE HERE IN UMS AND IN SABAH....

LOVE YOU GUYS MUCH....

rUsh, RuSH, RUSH...

2009-06-24T12:52:00.002+08:00

So much to prepare,

So much to do, So little time...

Am starting to feel it now,

4 more days left,

ONLY 4 lei,

and I've gotta leave already....

Dont worry, I am fine,

it's just that it seems so fast,

and so sudden....

Though I've got so much to prepare,

it is not so much the physical preparation,

but more of the emotional and mental one....

The thing I am gonna miss the most and i think everyone does anyway, is,

the RELATIONSHIPS I am leaving behind....

I AM gonna miss everyone here...

I am bad at GoodByes...

Why?

Cause I dont like the word at all....

But life is as such,

we just have to leave some time or another....

As the saying goes,

"GOOD TIMES WILL COME TO AN END"...

My prayer is that though physically I have to leave you guys,

God will still in His way sustain all our relationship....

Now the question is,

AM I READY TO LEAVE???

AM I READY TO FACE WHAT's AHEAD???

Well, all I can ever say is:

"Lord, only you i put my trust in, my Hope is in you, sustain me for what's ahead..."

WHaT HaPP3Nz, WH3N 4 GuYz R L3fT iN Da RooM 2 CL3aN uP...

2009-06-17T14:22:00.003+08:00

We're just being GUYZ....

A BLazt HoL-eE-Dei....

2009-06-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

Whew, THANK GOD, thank GOd my line finally is working....
It isn't perfect but still, it is working la....
WOO HOO!!!!
Yup, It's been a long while since I got to write anything....
God has been good to bless me with such an amazing month of holiday...
It is really refreshing but tiring(though it seems like an oxymoron that those 2 words can come together)....
For this post, I shall not post pictures, Hehe, cause most of it is already on facebook and I will just post some in some later blogs...

29th May:
We had a great party at Josie's house, It was packed with form 6 students... I felt a bit akward at first, since they were all Josie's year one, but then I was pretty amazed at how friendly these guys were... Had quite a great time, though it did remind me of my time in form 6 which was really THE BEST, schooling experience I had so far...

30th May - 2nd June:
Man, I had really one of the best times of my life... CHURCH CAMP... I praise God for opening the way for me to go.... I've always loved church camp.... The previous one in Kuantan was really one to remember... I was quite disappointed that it was cancelled last year, by GOD's GRACE, he made it happen this year...
To me, the biggest thing I look forward to during church camp is being able to hang around, talk, chat, spend time, linger, have fun, get to know and ENJOY each other's presence, I thought the Kuantan church camp was great, little did I know the things God was gonna do for this year's church camp.... The theme talks by Pastor Joshua was just great... Not just enthusiatic and funny, but one that I believe so much is from the Lord, it really convicted us all, especially on UNITY... The most meaningful theme talk was on the second morning where we had an amazing time praying for one another, God really worked in our hearts individually and corporatelly as a CHURCH.... Another thing that really striked me a lot is when pastor Joshua spoke to the youth and told us all to "RISE UP AND BE STRONG".... Wow, that was indeed powerful.... That is indeed the cry of my heart, to see young people of my generation RISE UP, especially the youths in KLUANG....
Other than the theme talks, we had super fun together... I am so so encouraged by how the Uncle's and Aunty's all participated so much.... Really shows that our church are full of AMAZING PEOPLE.... Trully am encouraged man.... Spending time with each other was great.... I bunked in with Gideon, Sean and Justin, wow, the fun we had each nite, teehee, really NUTS la.... Playing cards all nite till we kena from Security.... Playing volley ball and water polo.... Running along the beach and lying down on the sand with different people...
The testimonies given by different people was also VERY VERY POWERFUL, I have never heard testimonies so real, so powerful and so genuine from the HEART before, I nearly cried of Joy and gratitude during the sharing...
Church camp.... Really an unforgettable one for me.... Praise God for the experience, PRAISE God for church camp, Praise God for my church...
You guys will always have a special place in my heart....
Love lots....

3rd May - 5th May:
MYPG, here we come.... Set off on the 3rd nite, was very encouraged to see 20 of us from Kluang... It was a pretty long day, I would be lying if I said I was super attentive the whole day.... Hehe, I was actually pretty tired, but thank God for giving me the strength... I led in praying for the different LYPGs around.... It was great to see different LYPG leaders praying for one another... Uncle richard spoke on leadership and challenged the youths to rise up and stand up for righteousness in our land... He challenged the MEN to rise up and lead first, since God first called men to lead.... And he challenged the WOMEN to rise up and support the MEN... Anywayz, Great job to the Alor setar team... Thanks for taking such good care of us... We had some complications and nearly couldn't catch a bus home....

5th May(nite):
We celebrated Gid's farewell at KFC Kluang mall... Yup, a bunch of crazy youths again, making noise, clowning around and being SILLY in PUBLIC... Haha... After dinner, all the guys made a trip to CC.... COUNTER STRIKE MAN.... HEHE.... It was so so cool.... A total of 20 plus of us went.... IT was CRAZY, shouting at each other across the room, like the whole CC belongs to us... Haha... It was so fun we proposed to do it during Boyz nite.....

6th May:
We had community service on that day... We basically went together as a whole youth group to the railway track to give out food and supplies.... It was an eye-opening experience for me as I never knew there were so many people in need just at my doorstep.... Well, this is the first step for Ablaze to step out and serve the community....
At nite, the Tangs came and stayed over at my house... We went out for Mamak and stuff and stayed up pretty late watching Madagascar.... It was great having them around...

7th - 9th May:
We set off for FWP after church service... I was pretty nervous about driving on the highway by myself.... But to my great astonishment, it went out great, greater than expected, not bragging, but really, I never drove so smoothly on the highway before.... Praise GOd la... Plus I have people like Xueqi in the car to keep me awake.... Haha....
It was great to finally be able to meet up with the leaders which most of them I only got to speak to them via phone....
For the whole FWP, It was tiring running around and making sure the guys are fed well, that they have blankets and all... But honestly, it was God who gave me the strength plus the Joy to do all those.... We had an amazing nite of nitez.... We had a 2 hour session of prayin in the spirit and worship in the spirit.... God really blew us all away.... He revealed so much of himself to us....
The biggest thing is about the HEART.... I am reminded again why I do this and why I do anything at all.... It is for God.... we do it in response for His love.... Everything is in vain if it isnt directed to our Lord...
"Refine our hearts oh God, make it yours and YOURS alone".....
Thank God for FWP, a reminder for all of us and for me especially of the HEart of all things....
Jesus my Lord....

9th June(nite):
Though I was pretty tired, I had to make it for Jane's farewell.... It was the last time I will be seeing her for a long while.... Though I only got to know her for 2 years, she has been a wonderful friend.... We had a great time with her and yamseng-ing.... Hehe.... God Bless you Jane.... Thanks for being part of ourlives...

10th June:
You know la who's birthday.... Haha.... Derek hitched a plan to SARBOH our dear Jit.... We all met at kluang mall first before heading over to his house.... Armed with shaving cream, flour and cake..... Eish, we nearly GOT HIM.... He sniffed through alll our scams.... Haha.... I believe it was a birthday to remember, RITE JIT?

11th June:
Not only Baby Aeden was born, we had visitors.... Yvonne, Elaine and Stephanie came down to Kluang after visiting Melaka.... We brought them to many places to makan since they love food.... We had a lovely time to catch up....
But the happening thing was the BOYZ NITE.... WOO HOO!!!!
It was a whole nite of PS games, board games, counter strike and sleeping for us guys... It was the best fun nite I had.... It was also the first ever time I did not sleep for the whole nite at all... The best part of the fun nite was our COuNTER STRIKE session... there was about 22 of us and we crowded the same CC.... As before, we were shouting and yelling at each other across the room.... It was CRAZY, simply CRAZY.... It was great to have Gideon back home too... BOYZ NITE, GUYS ONLY, Hanging out with one another = Brotherly love and fellowship and FUN....

12th June:
I slept till 3pm.... Man was I tired.... Went over to help to set up the BBQ pit for Jit..... We had Calvin and Pastor Catherine over.... It was great to start the BBQ fire... Especially when you have Cheng Yee there.... Man, He really makes fire starting fun la.... Hehe....

Yup, that is a brief summary of my week.... Whew.... Like I said, refreshing and tiring at the same time... I thank God for giving me such an experience before I leave Kluang for my further studies.... Sigh... He is trully Good and Great...
I PRAISE YOU LORD FOR WHO YOU ARE AND FOR WHAT YOU'VE DONE IN ME AND FOR ME.....

L3ad3RshiP...

2009-05-12T00:11:00.002+08:00

Once upon a beautiful day,

I was walking along Hyde Park...

And God showed and taught me an amazing lesson on leadership,

From the DUCKS....

God brings people in our life who needs to be led...

We are to care, shepherd and love them...

We are to nurture them and help them grow...

And when they are ready,

LET THEM SOAR TO LEAD OTHERS...

Th3 h3aRt b3at oF---MalaYSia...

2009-04-27T22:32:00.005+08:00

Last Friday, I had the opportunity to go to Penang with 7 others to visit and take a sneak peek at Penang's 30 hour HOUSE OF PRAYER, which was started by this guy, Joshua Yeoh - A penangite, who studied in Minnesota and was called back to Malaysia...
I had a great time with the whole gang and also getting to meet Joshua and his team who are the ones organizing this 30 hour prayer...
This was my first time praying at 1a.m. will 3a.m.... And then praying again at 12p.m. till 4p.m...
To be really honest, I was tired at some point of the prayer meets... I have never been very strong in my prayer life, I can even say I still do struggle at times... But God revealed something to me about prayer... God gave me lots and lots of metaphors about prayer before... This time, it was in a form of a heart...
The heart beat of Malaysia, the thing that keeps Malaysia up and running is - PRAYER...
We can feed the poor as much as we can, we can send people into the mission fields as much as we want, we can have concerts, events, conferences, camps, as much as we like, but those are not the things that keep a nation ALIVE, those arent the things that keep the people of GOd pumping and running, those arent the things that will bring about TRANSFORMATION to a NATION and to the WORLD... PRAYER, both individual and corporate, is the very thing that keeps a nation ALIVE, PRAYER, is the very thing that sustains us all and PRAYER, is the key to NATION TRANSFORMATION AND GLOBAL IMPACT....

The tamil churches in Penang joining their hearts in prayer...

Pastor Ann Low leading the Pastor's fellowship in prayer...

Different generations praying and empowering each other for God's work...

MYPG team praying the Lord's prayer together...

Intercession for brothers and sisters in Christ in Penang for their daily needs...

A Place to write, draw and express what God has spoken to each of us...

Joshua Yeoh on the keyboard and Daniel Lee from Korea leading worship...

From left to right, bottom to top;

Elisabeth, Habshiba, Eunice,

Some guy in a white shirt, Cindy, April, Alvin and Cun Ling...

We had a great time of prayer together and a great time of fellowship with one another....

"...if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."

2 Chronicles 7:14

LET US RISE UP AND PRAY, TO PUMP BLOOD AND LIFE INTO

MALAYSIA....

aYaM, kaMbinG, baCk...

2009-04-20T08:31:00.002+08:00

This is a picture taken in Holland a.k.a Netherlands...

I just had to take a picture with it...

Am so glad about the name they gave this street...

Hehe....

Anyways, It has been a refreshing 17 days here in Europe...

I really enjoyed myself...

As much as I am happy to be here,

I am also happy to be goin back tmr...

To me,

-HoMe Iz 2nD to NoNe-
Cant wait to see you guys back home...

b3inG fuLL tiM3 --- 201

2009-03-30T18:57:00.006+08:00

It's Great to be back.... I missed my bed and the smell of my house.... I missed my parents and sisters and Aunty Vicky..... I missed my cousins, Ama, uncles and aunties.... I missed the Yfers and school friends..... It was so good to see you guys again and to be back in Kluang.... this has been the longest I've been away from Kluang - My HOME....

Though I've already been back for 4 days, Had a busy weekend, yup, and only got my chance to write today.... Teehee.... Anyways, The last 7 days away from home was an eye opening experience....

I will not post my entire schedule on my blog, fearing I might bore my readers.... Hehe.... BUt like the previous one, I will share with you guys the things GOd has taught me, and the things He spoke to me about and other things I;ve LEARNT.... Hehe....

*WE are vulnerable sheep, but THE LORD is our shepherd...
*God CAREs, and so MUST I...
*God does not want our sacrifices, he wants our faithfulness...
*After being converted, we must be INVERTED...
*The Heart OF worship is Giving your all for the greatest cause - Jesus...
*Seek God first above all else, and all will be added unto us...
*If we EARNESTLY seek God, We will FIND HIM...
*OUr Journey in Life begins with the call of God...
*The comforts of life may delay the plans of God for our lives...
*God will widen our horizon when we remove our distractions...
*Worship is a choice, choose to worship GOd for good, for bad and for the normal days...
*Running away out of fear and discomfort will bring more problems to ourselves and others around us...
*Obedience opens the door to revelation...
*Chill, SOme battles in life are just unnecessary...
*Do not interupt GOd's plan with human reasonings...
*When GOd makes a promise it will come to pass...
*The place of sin can also be a place of INTERCESSION...
*GOd wil always provide a way out whenever we mess up...
*God's testing = God's BLessings...
*God will break us before he can make us...
*Love is the only rational act, we MUST love one another...
*When the student is ready, the master will appear...
*Don't trust yoursef, GET A LIFE COACH...
*What's wrong with being number 2?
*Your external capacity will be determined by your inner discipline...
*How we see the world determines how we feel and respond to it...
*Want to know how sardins in a can feel? Try the KTM in KL...
*SIB KL is HUGE...
*SIB church service was cool, very well organized...
*Pastor Lindy is not 21...
*Pastor Chew speaks very well...
*Pastor Daniel is handsome...
*I love the show 'Tuesdays with MOrrie'...
*Death is scary, but it has a way of bringing back meaning to LIFE...
*I DO Enjoy shopping in KL...
*Shopping with close friends are even BETTER...
*Playing Naruto on the PS is super FUN, but you get bored after playing TOO much, hehe...
*'Race To Witch Mountain' was, well, Ok only la...
*'The City of Amber' was much nicer...
*People in KL have more patience than me...
*I cannot keep up with the pressures in KL...
*People in KL expect all Chinese to speak Cantonese...
*Mamak going is also a trend in KL...
*12 midnight is still too early for KL folks to hit the sack...
*There's a place in KL named Kuang, and it is definitely not Kluang...
*Travelling is great and exciting and fun, but nothing beats being home again...

Well, I really thank GOd for Pastor Victor and Pastor Kelly.... They are amazing people to hang out with.... NOt only because of the Fun, but because of all the things you can learn from them... I also praise GOd for the different people I got to meet and see....
ONe thing I was really encouraged by is seeing youths all across KL having the similar vision than the Kluang youths.... A passion for their generation.....
To GOD BE THE GLORY........

b3inG fuLL tiM3 --- 101

2009-03-18T14:22:00.005+08:00

Hey Peoples.... It has been exactly a week since I left Kluang for this exposure with Pastor Victor.... Well, Yes, I do miss Kluang and all you guys back home.... AND I SO GONNA MISS THE FUN AT AIR PAPAN!!!!! But I am also having a great time with Pastor Victor and Pastor Kelly, moving around KL and meeting lots of new faces..... God has been gracious to me.... He has been Good.... Have been sleeping in the car on the way to conferences or seminars... TIRED MAN.... God's the one who granted me the strength for my eye lids to stay open.... Hehe....

Am so glad to be able to have a chance to come online.... Finally, after a long 6 days without computer, without checking my mails, without checking my facebook, without being able to chat, and without being able to read my Naruto Manga, Haha, I finally am able to use the computer to come online.... Am currently in the SIB KL church office...

Well, what have I learnt so far?
*God's the Potter, I am the Clay...
*Learning the fundamentals of meeting new people and making new friends...
*Take each day at time, experience the Power of DAILY...
*My Lifesong is to God and Him alone...
*We as children of God need to content as ONE MAN...
*We will face difficulties when we rise up and pray, but we must respond to it in Christ...
*KL streets are so busy and lots of Jams...
*KL and PJ are 2 different places...
*Klang is not Kluang...
*Shopping and walking in KL is great...
*But walking alone can sometimes be, well, LONELY...
*Daniel snores...(Haha, He stayed over with me for a night)
*Tropic Thunder is GOOD, LOVE JACK BLACK...
*KL churches are BIG and very well established both the physical church and the spiritual church...
*People here are very interactive...
*Sexology is a HOT topic here...
*Men do not go through PMS or Menopause...
*Pubic hair is for decorative purposes...
*Getting Lost in KL is easy...
*LRT is starting to look easy...
*The Immigration office in KL sucks...
*Washing Clothes is not that hard...
*Brushing your teeth with your fingers can sometimes be more effective than brushes...
*Using a Ball Computer Mouse is frustrating...
*Many people do not look their age...
*Pastor Victor Sleeps late and gets up really early...
*Pastor Kelly enjoys food and late mornings, SO DO I....
*Pastor Daniel is very Friendly...
*Pastor Hock knows my brother...
*Pastor Chew is awesome...
*Pastor Noah is cool...
*Pastor Gideon does not look like Gideon Koh... Hehe...
*Pastor Lindy is 21...
*Pastor Lee Choo is so CUTE...
*I love Pastor Victor's office...
*There's a lot of very good-looking people in the church, both guys and girls...
*SIB staff devotion is very refreshing...
*Keith and Elroy are beautiful names...
*All churches conduct themselves differently...
*Church staffs in SIB work for God with a SMILE...
*I prefer Pastor Kelly's old hair style...
*It takes lots of preparation to do just one seminar...
*Being a full time worker is cool, It's fun, but it isn't always easy...
*APPRECIATE our full time workers...

Being in full time is challenging... I got the opportunity to see and experience the intensity of a full time person... But God has been good to raise up Pastor Victor to love and be so well suited for this job... I admire and desire to learn from him especially how he presents God's word and Himself to all different age groups and still be able to connect with each group so very well....

Well, I will not be coming back on Sunday, instead my trip has extended till next thursday... Do pray for me.... That God will continue to speak to me as He has been the past few days.... It is tiring, but I am really enjoying myself.... Awaiting to see what God has in store for me for the remaining days......
See you guys in a weeks time....

Stressful-Tension-Pressing-ME.... StPm....

2009-03-10T20:03:00.003+08:00

The stress is gone....
The tension subside....
To be honest,
I didn't feel that tension or stress....
Today I indeed have a different feeling when I went for my results....
Haha....
Unlike PMR or SPM.....
Where I was literally sweating my butt out....
Today, I didn't feel any tension, stress, anxiousness nor excitement.....
Only for a brief moment when I tore my slip to see what I got....
After that, when I saw my results,
All I felt was relief......
Yet Disappointed knowing that I could have done better for my Maths....
Yet a Shocking and Joyful feeling that I passed everything....
Well, with such mixed emotions,
My feelings were just neutralised.....
Haha.....
IF you wanna Know,
I got 2B and 2C...
It's not the best results....
BUt I trully trully thank GOd for it.....
He indeed blessed me....
I am not a study person....
Getting this results,
It is only God's grace....
I am satisfied...
And deeply THANKFUL
AND,

"I stand here once again as a testimony, that you can serve God and do well in your results...."

Great job to all the STPM candidates.....
GOd BLess you guys....

Special thanks to all who stood by me during this form 6 journey till this day when I took my results....
GOd indeed blessed me with you guys to help me through this and achieve what I have today....
Love you all....

"wHy m I" in Tapah??

2009-03-02T22:52:00.007+08:00

Just got back last Sunday from another exciting trip of YMI....

This time round, we went up together as a whole team of 10 people instead of in pairs....

We went to a centre runned by Malaysian Care in Tapah...

This centre mainly helps orang asli people to learn to earn their own income.....

WE really had a great time.....

It was challenging...

BUt God was faithful.....

I trully had a meaningful time with every single person that went.....
We has a chance to mix cement, learn more about organic agriculture, cooked our own meals, go to beautiful waterfalls, get bitten by leeches and so much more....

But the biggest highlight for me was the nightly prayer meetings we had....

I dont usually enjoy prayer that much, but starting from day 1, as God led me to encourage daily prayer meets together in line with the trip to Alor Setar, I felt strongly a PEACE and JOY Each night during prayer....

It came like a source of strength to me during this whole trip....

I trully thank God for speaking to us all....

I thank God also for such supportive teammates who engaged in prayer together with me....

After 5 days in Tapah,

7 of us headed up North to Alor Setar...

We went there mainly to visit their first LYPG and to pray with the leaders there of the direction of MYPG 2009....

We had a great time there also....

Our host Aunty Siew HAr and Elisabeth really took great care of us... PRaise God for them...

We had an amazing time of prayer with the Alor Setar leaders on Friday night.....

God revealed himself to all of us.....

He spoke to us.....

It was another wonderful time of prayer.....

We were also blessed with a short retreat for us.....

We visited Alor Setar tower, WEnt to visit Mahathir's birth place, had good food, went canoing, went fishing and hanged out a lot with each other and the ALor Setar guys.....

We were all sad to leave Alor Setar.....

Hope we could come back for another visit.....

Please Pray for our Alor Setar brothers and sisters who will be hosting MYPG 3 this June...

I would sum my whole trip as refreshing,

not only because of all the things we got to do,

not only because that we were given a lot of time to ourselves,

BUT...

Most of all because God spoke to us and refreshed us with His presence.....

"I Thank You Lord, and Praise you for you are Good, Your mercies Endure forever"

Giving is recieving, as recieving is Giving....

2009-02-17T00:32:00.003+08:00

AGREED???
Or NO?
This was something i thought about,
Recieving is actually a way of giving the other party a chance to Give.....
Dont get me wrong, I am not approaching in a selfish type of way,
IN Fact,
I am actually addressing people who always serve,
always give
and seem to never want to recieve....
In a way,
You just cant continue like that,
firstly, many times it insults people,
and more so,
I believe the only person who does not NEED from another
is GOD...
We are given friends and family who are there to assist and help us....
ESPecially in times of need....
NO,
We are not to take advantage of that,
but in fact,
we are to recieve it thankfully,
and channel it to help another in need....
ISN't that the WAY??
Stop playing hero....
God gave us each other to help one another....
REMEMBER,

Giving, might sometimes be selfishly recieving an opportunity that isn't yours, all because you wanted to be HERO....

nOiSe....

2009-02-10T22:21:00.003+08:00

Just came back from a Chinese Eng Choon dinner....
2 days ago,
I also went for another dinner.....
Conclusion???
They love to play unnecessary music, or should i say NOISE....
It is just so loud,
and no one is even listening......
Cant even enjoy the food or each other's company...
My question is WHY?
WHY must they have such 'music'???
Anyway,
During dinner, i somehow remembered this guy.....

Haha.....
I imagined if he were here to listen....
Boy, would he have A LOT to say about the singing....

Hehe.....

WEll,
he's known to be a real mean guy,

and i dont always agree with the way he treat's the American Idol contestants....

BUt,Without him,
there would never be an American Idol,

There would not be great singers who would imerge....

And honestly, The show would be SUPER dull without him.....

Speechless...

2009-02-07T22:54:00.002+08:00

Yup,
FOr now i am.....
REally Dont know what to post on my blog lately....
HAHAHAHA.....
People have been saying what's wrong with my blog and stuff....
Well, honestly, i dont wanna post just because i wanna fill my blog....
So, Ya,
HAng in there people....
Hehe.....

DouBLe-cRoSSeD biRthDay

2009-01-28T20:56:00.005+08:00

The Original Target....

I was then made the target...

I was PUNKED......

Thanks Wei Wey..... Haha..... LOve ya....

Haha..... What a surprise for me...... I was PUNKED on my birthday...... I wanted to scare Wei Wey on her birthday..... Give her a surprise..... Turns out she knew all about it and used it to turn against me..... Thanks to all the double-crossers(Dawson, Chris, Daniel especially)...

Man I am blur..... SO BLUR......

Thanks Wei Wey..... Thanks Guys..... It was FUN.....

BLESSED BIRTHDAY TO YOU, WEI WEY....

aM bAK..

2009-01-23T00:03:00.004+08:00

It has been a packed 3 weeks for me.....

Firstly, it was mMYPG...
A total of 11 of us from Kluang went up to Kuantan for the mini prayer gathering...
It was a refreshing experience....
Th Kuantan guys organized it very well.....
Their hospitality was really really good......
The place we were given to stay was outstanding.....
I was very encouraged to see the Passion for prayer in the hearts of the people in Kuantan.....
Their LYPG grew so so fast.....
Other than the people there, it was also refreshing to see young people across this country coming together to cry out to GOd for beloved Malaysia......
I thank GOd for bringing us there to experience it all.....
It was really fun meeting bro's and sis's in Christ all over the nation who have a Passion for Christ and for the country....
I also had loads of fun travelling with the Kluangites.....
The time we had in the car, at mamak, in the house, praying, eating etc.....
It was crazy.....
Hehe.....

Team KLUANG

Just the past Monday i got back from YMI.....
It was yet another great experience.....
We had a total of 4 days of training in Kluang before we were sent out in groups to different places....
It was indeed an eye opening encounter.....
Brian and I were sent to the Hulu Langat to do orang asli work and experience their life there....
God was gracious to help us adapt quickly to the place and environment....
I learnt a lot through this experience....
One of them is to be grateful with wat i have been given....
Also, that I need to learn to love and live with the people that GOd has placed around me...
But the main one is to Seek Ye First the Kingdom of God...
I had fun,
Praise GOD...

My Partner and Me

Thank GOd for each and every person he put in my life during YMI.... It was great hangin out with you guys.... I had so much fun during our sleep over... For those who dont stay in Kluang, Will be praying for you guys.... Till we meet again, Take Good care of yourselves and God bless....

Love you GUYS....

YMI-ers 2009

tHanK U LoRd..... fOr 2008.....

2009-01-01T00:02:00.011+08:00

I know, I know..... A lot of you guys are scolding me.....

Why this Paulus put so many photos wan.....

So long only can finish uploading my blog.....

Haha.....

Sorry.....

You know how i LOVE PICTURES....

Anyway,

A year has gone,

A new year has come....

Before i move on,

I want to celebrate the past....

I want to count my blessings from the Lord....

And like every year.....

The biggest blessings to me are the RELATIONSHIPS GOd has BLessed me with.....

My Parents,

My siblings,

My Cousins,

My friends,

My classmates,

My loved ones....

Thank you all for making 2008 one to remember....

Thanks for sharing the joys and sorrows of this past year....

Let's move on clinging to GOd,

knowing that when our lives are in his hands,

WE DO NOT HAVE TO FEAR......

"Look behind,

to learn,

to review,

and to laugh....

NOw let's look forward,

to hope,

to have faith,

and to LOVE..."

ChRisTmaZzz....

2008-12-25T23:25:00.002+08:00

Christmas is a time to love.....
Yup, it is indeed one of my favourite carols.....
Not only that, but one of the greatest Christmas value system for me.....

Well, My favourite season is over again.....
Have to wait another year.....
Sigh.....

This year, i had one of the toughest times with the gifts.....
I was so frustrated about the gifts i bought for some of my friends.....
I just wanted to give them something they really like,
something they really love.....
Yes, i've heard it before....
"It is the heart that counts"
But, if you just simply give a gift to anyone just for the sake of it,
It already shows your heart....

Anyway, when i was being frustrated and worrying about the gifts,
God rebuked me.....
I remembered the song Christmas is a time
"We often start to worry, when people get upset,
when things dont go so right one christmas day"
That was exactly how i felt......
But then God asked me.....
What is Christmas???
Why celebrate it????
Then, i was ashamed,
facing the ground i said:
"Sorry Lord, yup, why worry, why frus???
Isnt this day YOUR DAY???
ISnt it your birthday, a reminder to the word of HOPE in you???
Thank You Lord, that though it is your birthday,
YOu gave me and the world a GIFT,
YOU GAVE US JESUS!!!!!

I was reading this book called,
THE GLORY OF CHRSITMAS.....
It really spoke to me.....

"Because of Jesus,
Because of Calvary,
For this Christmas I am FREE to Choose....
And So I CHOOSE,

I Choose Love..
No Occasion justifies hatred, no injustice warrants bitterness. I Choose to love. Today I will love God and what God loves.

I Choose Joy
I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance. I will refuse the temptation to be cynical, the tool of the lazy thinker. I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God. I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God.

I Choose Peace
I will live forgiven. I will forgive so that i may live.

I Choose Patience
I will overlook the inconvenience of the world. Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I'll invite him to do so. Rather than complain that the wait is too long. I will thank God for a moment to pray. Instead of clinching my fist at new assignments. I will face them with joy and courage.

I Choose Kindness
I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone. Kind to the rich, for they are afraid. And kind to the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.

I Choose Goodness
I will go without a dollar before i take a dishonest one. I will be overlooked before I will boast. I will confess before I will accuse.

I Choose Faithfulness
Today i will keep my promises. My debtors will not regret their trust. My associates will not question my word. My wife will not question my love. And my childrn will never fear that their father will not come home.

I Choose Gentleness
NOthing is won by force. I choose to be gentle. If i raise my voice may it only be in praise. If i clence my fist, may it be only in prayer. If i make a demand may it only be of myself.

I Choose Self-control
I am a spiritual being. After this body is dead, my spirit willsoar. I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal. I choose self-control. I will be drunk only by joy. I will be impassioned only by faith. I will be influenced only by God. I will be taught only by Christ.

Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulhess, Gentleness and Self-control. To these I commit my day. If i succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will seek His grace. And then, when this day is done, I will place my head on my pillow and rest.

MAX LUCADO

This Christmas is a reminder for me of why and what i live for.....

I pray that the gift of Love will be the greatest gift i give to all,

just as it is the greatest gift God gave us.....

God Bless you all....

JOhn jOhN.... AgAp3's 1 N onLy JOHN....

2008-12-15T00:38:00.003+08:00

EspLodeD....

2008-12-14T17:51:00.006+08:00

E.S.P, ESP is on fire,

We dont want the devil cause the devil is a LIAR....

Woohoo...... AM BACK..... Just got back only, am feeling a bit tired, but dont wanna sleep.... Hehe.... So might as well write about camp sine it's just fresh in my head.....

Well, like always, it starts with a SIGh..... Man, camp is over..... Cant believe it.... Wished it could be longer...... But we have to come back to the real world now..... SNAP back to REALITy..... My bro always calls this the mountain top experience..... It's always hard to get back to 'life', but i think this time will be fine, since this isn't my first camp..... My view about camps like ESP, gives me a picture of heaven...... This is what i always imagine when we go to heaven..... We would all be living together, meeting together, playing together, having fun with one another, but most of all, worship God together..... It always gives me a glimpse of heaven and that's why i always always enjoy such camps..... Especially with the Ablazing YOUTHS.....

Anyway, this experience was great..... This time round, we had so much fun during sessions..... That's what i like about Pastor Victor..... He makes the topic all fun by speaking our language, helping us to get comfortable before giving us very practical but blibical teachings...... First night we had a Guy's competition..... All the guys rock and so did John.... Great job man..... Second day we had a WEDDING..... Haha.... It was really cool and funny..... Both Chris and Christina did great and were very sporting..... Once again, SORRY TO ISAAC LOY..... Haha.... I still owe you an ice-cream.....

To sum it all up i enjoyed Pastor victor's sessions very much..... I've learnt a lot......

Other than this, praying for others was also an amzing experience..... I thank god for the opportunity to be able to bless, encourage, anoint, speak into, affirm and build up others through prayer...... I also thank God for everyone who also came and bless me with prayer.....

But i think by far one of the most unique and loved experience in camp is Pastor Victor's blessing and Word of prophecies over the leaders lives ...... Followed by the prayer tunnel..... While i joined hands with Wei Ling to prayer for all that went through the tunnel, tears filled my eyes..... It was for 2 reasons, one is because i felt that this generation of young believers have talents, have gifts and they are simply amazing, BUT, many do not know that they are capable of much much more if and only if they learn to surrender their gifts, talents, passions, dreams, visions and Lives to GOd...... This i speak for myself also and i urge and encourage all to look beyond just their talent, knowing that it isnt in our talents that we rely on, but it's faith in JESUS, becuase in HIM, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE...... The second thing that triggered my tears was because I also saw a generation of BELIEVERS that have a HEART for GOD..... And that made me cry and weep and interceded for them...... Because i foresee a rising generation of CHIRSTIAN LEADERS that are conquerors..... A MIGHTY GENERATION OF SPIRITUAL LEADERS that God is already raising up......

It was a very refreshing camp..... I long to come back and impact my world....... I thank God for all the people I've got the priviledge to meet, especially those from other churches...... Also for the blazing youths that i has a chance to hang out with and talk to...... Last but not least, the friends that we brought to the camp...... ESPECIALLY LILY....Staying the same room with Him was fun with Wei Jie around too..... Hehe..... May God Bless you all......

"I'll Stand with arms high and heart abandoned, in all, for the ONE who gave it all,

I'll Stand, my soul long to you surrendered, all I am is YOURS"

sAy ChEezee....

2008-12-02T12:35:00.003+08:00

DID YOU GUYS SEE IT?????

I think it was so cool.....

One of the very first times i saw an actual genuine natural smile....

Since the sky was smiling, it was all ready for a photo.....

Hehe.....

Thank You Lord for the smile....

Hmmmmm......

2008-11-26T20:03:00.001+08:00

PATIENCE:

It isnt the ability to WAIT.....

It is the ability to WAIT with the RIGHT attitude.......

Whew...

2008-11-25T15:58:00.003+08:00

Well,
There's a saying, "Time really flies when you're having fun".....
Do you know it works the other way round too?
It's like i cant seem to have enough time to finish my preparation completely,
Yet time is just moving so slowly i could run faster than it......
Sigh.....
OH well,

This is the Song in my mind for a while:

THE VOICE OF TRUTH

Oh,what I would do to have

the kind of faith it takes

To climb out of this boat I'm in

Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone

Into the realm of the unknown

Where Jesus is,

And he's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me

Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed

The waves they keep on telling me time and time again

"Boy, you'll never win, you'll never win.

"But the voice of truth tells me a different story

the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"

and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"

Out of all the voices calling out to me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh, what I would do to have

the kind of strength it takes

To stand before a giant

with just a sling and a stone

Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors

shaking in their armor

Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me

Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed

The giant keeps on telling me time and time again

"Boy you'll never win, you'll never win.

"But the voice of truth tells me a different story

the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"

and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"

Out of all the voices calling out to me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Yup..... Though i am not going through an easy period, I thank GOd for HIs voice of truth that i CHOOSE to listen to.....

Help me Oh Lord.......

"GREAT JOB TO ALL WHO IS SITTING FOR SPM..... IT"S GONNA BE OVER SOON...... YOU GUYS DESERVED THE BREAK,

ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR LAST DAY!!!!!"

Eish!!!!

2008-11-18T18:18:00.003+08:00

If Anyone knows what the word means......

Hehe......

Well,

I just feel so Eish now......

The worse feeling is not 'NOT KNOWING',

the worse feeling is 'KNOWING BUT YOU FORGOT'

I BELIEVE I Can DO BETTER......

Super Eish....

Sigh....

Help me Oh Lord to just trust in YOU,

I promise to trust in you in ALL circumstance......

iN loVinG MeMori3s Of scHooLinG in StK...

2008-11-07T23:55:00.001+08:00

Sigh......
Well, the day has finally arrived......
It's not that i will never see my classmates, schoolmates and friends anymore.....
Sigh,
It's just the experience in the same class,
studying together,
learning together,
FELLOWSHIPING TOGETHER......
I will certainly miss the experience.......
VERY VERY MUCH........
It will be a part of my life that i will always remember and treasure.......
WHY??
CAUSE....

1. I really enjoyed this experience very much...... Yup, everyone dreads going to school, but so far this has been the best schoooling experience for me..... I had to drag myself up everyday at 6am from bed to school...... But then i would start to enjoy the day...... I also am very priviledge to have been able to not only befriend so many many amazing friends, but being able to serve alongside them and serve them...... They have been great encouragements to me.....

2. Other than just enjoying this experience, i've also learnt a lot from this experience which has helped me to grow in every aspect of my life..... God put me there for a purpose and reason..... And i believe that purpose was not only to bless but in the midst of it be BLESSED...... I was in form 6 not only to work and serve, but to be nurtured and grow at the same time..... I THANK GOD FOR THAT.....

Well, overall, an enriching and refreshing experience..... Like i said, one i will miss very much.....

TO ALL MY FELLOW FRIENDS, PEERS, CLASSMATES, SCHOOLMATES, TEACHERS.... Thank You for making this form 6 journey worth while...... It wouldn've been the same without you guys...... WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN LIFE.....
Will keep you all in my prayers......

P.S.. photos are up on facebook.....

ArgHH...

2008-11-04T19:20:00.003+08:00

Man.....
Ever made a mistake that you just feel so sourish in the inside???
Sigh.....
Felt so Frus today of MYSELF.....
Felt that i made so many of this mistakes......
Felt i let down some people,
Myself and
ultimately.... GOD!!!
Sigh.....
But God is faithful and merciful and gracious......
He doesn't only forgive me.....
He takes me through a whole new experience to help me grow stronger in HIM.....

To Move on in HIM.....

"Thank you Lord, for this experience.....
Teach me oh Lord, to rise up through these mistakes....."

tiM3 tHat CaTcheZZZZ...

2008-11-03T19:13:00.002+08:00

Time do fly......

16 more days till STPM......

So fast, So quick.....

Thank God for the trust and faith He has given me.....

I am not that panicky or stressed out as i thought i would be..

He's teaching me to trust in HIM....

BUt something i 'worry' more about is my 4 remaining days of school with my friends....

Never gonna study with them as such ever again.....

It can be a scary thought.....

ESPECIALLY,

when we question whether we have done enough,

whether we have done all we could to impact......

FATHER, My CRY is that YOU say well done to me, after i leave Form 6 for doing

YOUR WILL....

HappY bIrThdAY mR ChUa....

2008-10-20T23:45:00.002+08:00

Last Friday, we had the opportunity to celebrate Mr Chua's birthday..... It was so fun..... Great Planning Jolene.....

Mr Chua is our physics teacher...... He is one of the nicest most patient teacher that I have ever come across........ I havent ever seen him angry before...... BUt he has his ways to control his students..... Hehe...... He is the logest teaching teacher in stk, a total of 35 years of serving in the school...... He is a great teacher..... He tells jokes too to make the classes more amusing..... HE IS SUPER LAME MAN!!!!! Haha...... But in between lessons, he will also talk about life, it's twist and turns, it's ups and downs..... He often advise us about our future, our wife, our career etc...... But what strikes me the most is his ever SMILING FACE...... He definitely brigthens up a person's day with just his unique SMILE.....

Thanks Mr Chua, WE LOVE YOU!!!!!

FattY..... LARD!!!! AHHHH!!!!

2008-10-18T00:26:00.002+08:00

MAN...... My little tyre is expanding...... Eish....... MUST MUST DIMINISH IT!!!!!

Do i look fat????

Some people have been telling me that....

Haha....

Well, no point sitting here and complain.....

MUST WORK WORK WORK.....

BURN BURN BURN....

EXERCISE TO KEEP FIT,

TO LOSE THE UNWANTED SEGMENT.....

BY GOD"S STRENGTH.....

Hehe....

bAd-m3aN-ToN fA3eW3lL...

2008-10-14T23:10:00.003+08:00

It's been already a week but i just thought of posting some pictures of the farewell.....

Opening Speech by out-going President....

Lee Ming and Shi Feng aka Secretary and Vice president.. People of great assistance to me...

From top left, Yiwan(Ajk perhubungan), AiPing(Juruaudit), Pyng Jyng(Ajk Ting.6), Joey(Vice secretary), Eunice(treasurer) and Lee Ming.... All did a wonderful job....

CheeZE!!!!

Mr Lim and Puan Leong our teacher advisors and New president Shu sien...

Presidents..

The Old Boeard.... People say i look fat in the photo..... AH!!!!!!

New Board....

Group picture.....

Serving as president in a school club was great..... I thank God for the opportunity and also for the people he gave me to help me through this.... May this experience be a mile stone to help me in the future....

aLL aLon3...... t3dDi?

2008-10-05T23:30:00.002+08:00

Hehe...... I know i look stupid.......

Sigh.....

Well, I am alone again, with my bro who just flown off yesterday......

Honestly, last year i was excited about the experience of having a whole room to myself and all....

And that i could be the oldest..... I was really excited to face whatever life i was going to have with my bro's absence.....

But little did i know, i missed him so much last year....

Suddenly there wasn't any shadow i could hide in......

Suddenly my room seemed so empty......

Suddenly my life felt funny and weird.......

YES..... I ADMIT IT!!!!! I DID MISS HIM LIKE MAD!!!!!! I COULDN't WAIT HIS RETURN.......

But through the days he wasnt there, i learnt so much......

The biggest lesson was to stand up on my feet on my solid ground which is CHRIST.....

The past 4 months was amazing with my bro......

Although i had to share him with so many people..... HAHA..... But i dont mind......

We had our times together talking, playing, hitting one another.......

I really enjoyed it.....

God indeed took our relationship to another level......

I have never leaned on him so much before.......

NOw, He's gone back to ENGLAnD..... AHHHH......

DUH, I miss him, and i ain't afraid to say it ok, JIT!!!!

I will always miss him, it's a brother thing..... Hehe........

God bLEss Bro..........

Ar3 W3 tHanKinG GoD?

2008-09-29T23:22:00.003+08:00

'Ask and Ye shall receive'

Yup, very true, but are we just asking, receiving, enjoying and loving the gifts and blessings God has for us without thanking HIM???

Luke 17: 11-19

"While Jesus was on his way to Jerusalem, he was going through the area between Samaria and Galilee.

As he came into a small town, ten men who had a skin disease met him there. They did not come close to Jesus, but called to him,'Jesus! Master! Have mercy on us!'

When Jesus saw the men, he said,'Go and show yourselves to the priests.' As the ten men were going, they were healed.

When one of them saw that he was healed, he went back to Jesus, praising God in a loud voice.

Then he bowed down at Jesus' feet and thanked him. (and this man was a Samaritan)

Jesus said,'Werent ten men healed? Where are the other nine?

Is this Samaritan the only one who came back to thank God?'

Then Jesus said to him,'Stand up and go on your way.You were healed because you believed.'

I've learnt a lot from this story, but what i would like to draw attention to is the Gratitude and thanksgiving heart of the Samaritan man...

This is something i've just suddenly been thinking about myself... Thanksgiving....

Am i thankful for the gifts God has given me?

Am I content of all the blessings He has showered on me?

Am i letting the craving desires of my heart blind me from the abundance i already have?

Am i just pursuing new things and more things without appreciating the now things GOd has blessed me with?

Hmmmm, I wonder and ponder...... The passage above is preached mainly to myself, I just need to step back at times and count my blessings.... I need to and want to appreciate everything around, family, friends, comforts, discomforts, my surroundings.......

Someone once said that the minute we complain, we should be thankful for something to complain about, rather than people who do not even have anything......

Well, I know this post a bit messed up, not in order, but it's my heart that i wanna share out....

I promise you Lord, that i would be more appreciative of all that you've given me......

I PRAISE YOU AND ADORE YOU!!!!!

mArriAge..... wEddIngs.... COOL!!!!

2008-09-10T22:34:00.003+08:00

YipPee.....
No paper for tomorrow.....
Really thank God for being with me throughout the exam......
I learnt true trust in the Lord is surrender fully, and DUN WORRY.......

Anyway, it's been 2 weddings for a week....... And let me tell you...... IT"S SO COOL!!!!!!
Man.... I Love weddings....... It really makes me so thrilled...... Especially if the newly weds people are close to me.......
Thanks guys for making me a part of your weddings and your lives......

I've got a lot to say about weddings..... But maybe not this time...... But what i wanna say is:

"GUY's can CRY!!!!! Out of fear, sadness or Joy...... TRUE MAN CRY........ WHY?? Because they know how to be human......... I totally dont agree to saying man cant tear only can bleed..... That's just so fake......"

Wh3n iT'z All b33n sAiD @nd Don3...

2008-08-30T22:34:00.004+08:00

Well, Commissioning..... It finally came......
To be honest, it's a relief..... And it didnt turn out as bad as it seems....
All my closer friends would know what a struggle i've been going through preparing myself each week for comissioning and finding out that week itself that it has been postponed.....
Leaving the team for me is hard...... Very hard.......
I've said it before, if i had my own choice, i would continue..... But there are times in life when things has reached it's season, it is just time to drop it and LET GO......
Urghh.... How i dislike hearing that word..... Hehe......
But i thank God that everytime we're called out of something, it just doesnt end there,
God calls us into something more..... Just as Winter has to come before the summer and the darkness before the dawn, so also, God has prepared something much greater for us all when we've finished and passed a season.......

Well, servin in the team was great, from music coordinator to vice president and to president.....
I can only sum it as such...... God's grace was sufficient for me....... Being elected as a leader in form 4 has already been an honour, an opportunity i really really thank God for as i felt i didnt deserve the opportunity.... And each year, he took me higher not to lift me up, but i believed through all these experience i have been humbled....... It was never been easy, there were hard times, there were times i cried, but in all those times, i never regretted a moment serving in the team...... What sustained me to carry on was my love for God and my love for the peoples, Yfers......

To my team:
Thanks for being a great support, i repeat what i said to you guys...... You guys arent a perfect team, but i cant ask for better....... It was my honour to serve alongside you guys...... Sorry if there has been any offence I've made, and now you've seen the fiercer side of Paulus too...... BUt I will let you guys know that i really trully love you guys.......

For those who are continuing,
I pray God will raise you up higher and higher in Him to become mighty spiritual leaders for Christ..... Love, serve, care and give to the Yfers,develope a love for people, just as Christ did....... Please listen to Wei wey and support her as much as you've supported me..... Submit to one another...... Be open with one another and grow together..... Never fear confrontation, but approach it with love and grace..... Read the Word of God, grow in Love with it, it is your fuel to carry on.... Let everything you do be unto the Lord and His kingdom...... I am always opened for you guys to approach me for assistance...... I would gladly help......

For those who stepped down with me,
Leading doesnt end here...... The lord has something in store for us..... Trust Him that he will lead you by the hand...... In all that the Lord has for us, May we do it to the best of our efforts..... I too am praying for you guys to be strong in the Lord and never stop growing in Him.....

For the new guys,
YOu guys can do it, i believe in you and so does GOd...... As hand picked by God dont doubt the decision or yourself..... Trust the Lord and he will direct your leadership path.... Never cease growing in Him..... Do not let the expectations of man pressure and crush and control you, but let the will of God be your ultimate strive...... Seek wise counsel and have strong accountability partners, you need them to help you in this journey, no leader walks alone....... I am praying for you guys and also extend my hand to you......

To the all my dearest brothers and sisters, da Yfers,
Well, I am now an ordinary yfer..... Hope i will be more approachable..... Though my role in the committee has ended, my role to serve, love and care for you guys are for life..... Hehe..... So dont think you can get away eeasily with me..... Hehe......

LORD I'M AMAZED BY YOU.......

HOW YOU LOVE ME..........

dE HoLzz ^_^

2008-08-26T19:58:00.005+08:00

Though it lasted only a week, I thank God for the great holiday...

Well It was one of the first holidays i had to study.... Haha..... I thank GOd for giving me the ability to do so.......

Anyway, 3 main things happened during the holidays.....

Firstly was my Cherating trip...... It was great, the time i had with my family..... Eating was a very important part too...... But i loved most was not rushing for anything during this trip.... We took our time to enjoy each day pass by...... Eating, swimming, laying on the beach, watching the sunrise, taking pictures, sleeping, snoozing, crab catching....... It was simply refreshing.......

That's my aunty and Little Cuzzie....

The sunrise, cool morning wind, and the sound of waves hitting the seashore, One of my favourite ways to spend time with the Lord.....

Wheee......

When i went up, i cried, when He went up the Tree cried....

Tyre swinging, A man's game.....

My Mum.... She wanted to give it a try....

Me Family....

Crap.... Opppsss Sorry.... CRAB!!!!

Siblinghood....

Second, was the Surprise party..... Joy's birthday.... Hehe.... Planned it since Tuesday.... Great job Ma Qian Yi...... I was so excited and worried that day.... But the surprise went great...... Thanks to all who came and contributed..... Thanks for sacrificing, having to squeeze in my little study..... And thanks to some people.... Ahem, Ahem, who violated my rooms privacy.... Haha..... It was a great time anyway....

Group Pic....

Supper.....

Last but not least...... 3 amazing people stayed over at my house..... Calvin from Hong Kong, Puiteh from Myanmar and SunMi from Korea...... It was great knowing them and getting to know them more....... It was indeed sad to see them leave....... It was our pleasure hosting you guys..... GOd BLEss...

crAbzzzz.... Weeeee.....

2008-08-24T13:49:00.005+08:00

Call me childish.... But this was one thing i really enjoyed when i was a kid and still do......
Just came back from a refreshing family trip to Cherating, Terengganu...... The beach there was really nice.....
And one thing i really enjoyed when i was by the beach was this,

"Catching Crabs.... Hermit crabs..."

It was really fun..... What made it more fun, there were so many...... I was TRILLED..... Hehe.....

Here are some steps of how i do it.....

Step 1: My attention is caught by these little things.....

Step 2: Observe the numerous variety of crabs running around...

Step 3: Here I go.... One crab, two crab, three crab, four crab...... Man this is easy and FUn.... See them run in terror as a big hand descends to 'rapture' them.....

Step 4 : Take time to admire the spledour of God's creation in crabs....

Step 4: Let them Go.... I wanted to take them home though, but they belong where they belong...

Step 5: Let them run for their lives.....

Lastly, if they dont run, use them for a "higher" purpose.... Hehe.....

What i learnt from the crabs?

~They reveal the beauty of God

~They reveal the beauty and awesomeness of His creation

~They please God and worship Him by being CRABS...

~Some crabs have strong bonds with their home(shells)

~Others have strong bonds with one another, refusing to let one be taken without the other,

WOW, true LOVE!!!!

Note: No crabs were hurt, killed, taken or misplaced during this experdition......

a Fri3nD?

2008-08-19T12:46:00.002+08:00

Henri Nuowen(whoever he is)wrote

"The friend who can be silent with us

in a moment of despair or confusion,

who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement,

who can tolerate

not knowing,

not curing,

not healing and

face with us the reality of powerlessness,

THAT

is a FRIEND who cares."

Wow.....
Forgive me Lord, if i failed to be a friend who cares to others....
Give me strength to glorify your name by being a better friend each day.....

Hmmmm....

2008-08-19T00:24:00.002+08:00

Yup,
the perfect way to start this post.....
Hmmmmmm.......
It's 12a.m., just came back from another fruitful and challenging session of MLM....
Richard spoke today......
Everytime i go for one of the sessions especially when Richard speaks, i come back challenged and thinking a lot........
Tonights session really puts me in deep thought about my surroundings and especially about
MY LIFE........
I always encourage people to reflect on ones life,
I do it every night before i sleep....
it doesn't only allows the person to review ones own life,
but i believe in the quietness of the night,
when the mind stops thinking so much and prepares for rest,
one can also allow God to reveal himself to you....

Thinking, pondering, reflecting......
Oh Lord, be with me now......
Take me through a time of quiet reflection.....
Reflection to mature the soul,
To live life better and to the fullest for the new dawn ahead.....

ReAcTioNzz....

2008-08-02T00:31:00.002+08:00

Nope, Not any chemical reactions..... Hehe, but today i really learnt an amazing and important lesson..... I would call it a revelation......

A certain wise man said to me:

"It is not so much about the right or wrong actions we do, but is the reations that results from the actions that matters more"

When that was said, it suddenly occured to me and made so much sense, the nail really hit....

I've somehow known about this, but it didnt really connect, but today, after an unforgetable experience, it all MADE SENSE, SUPER SENSE......

We as human, homosapiens are imperfect in nature, we do make mistakes in the decisions we make.... My dad always tell me,

NEVER WAIT FOR THE PERFECT DECISION, IT JUST DOESNT EXIST!!!!

Well, it's true, we make right decisions as well as some flawed ones along this journey of life, from time to time, but dont they have their sets of problems and consequences that follows? So then what's up with the wrongs???? Everyone cant stand it, they fear it, they just cant take it, and everyone just wants to avoid it completely.... That to me is PERFECTION......

Then what? Well, our GOd is a God of hope, there's always hope in HIm if we believe, decisions are important, but what's more important then the decisions made, is not whether it's right or wrong, but the decisions that come after we've made the decision, the reactions that follow the actions.......

Pick oneself up everytime we fall, remember it's not the end, but a challenging and amazing beginning.... God gives us chances, and after each action/ decision, what is our reaction???? What is our next decision????

bL3553d B3 dE naM3 of dE LORD....

2008-07-24T22:36:00.002+08:00

Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

Blessed be your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say Lord,
Blessed be your name

I've been reading about Job lately, and i thought of this song because this is indeed taken from there........ This is one of my favourite songs..... Not really because of the great tune..... But more of because this song always speaks to me.......

JOb is one of my bible heros..... The man God boasts about to Satan..... The man that didnt fail the test of God...... He is simply just amazing....... One of the biggest lessons i learnt from him is his ability to submit, love and trust God to let go everything into His hands.....
Though i know of this story and lessons for a long time already, just this few days, during my devotion what really strikes me is
DYING......
I do no fear death for myself more than for my love ones......
Job had his entire family wiped out... And yet He praised the Lord, Yes he did grieve for his family,
BUt still HE PRAISED THE LORD!!!

I cant imagine and am so scared to imagine the lost of my loved one(family, friends)...... The question is can i still praise the Lord even if they are taken from me>??? Will i be as strong as Job?????
My Answer for now,
is NO!!!!!
I wont be as strong as Job and it will be so so so hard for me to accept and get over it...... Sigh, but what i can assure is that I pray that God will take me to that stage....... By God's grace He will......

Our life starts living whwn we Let Go..... And Let God.....

MYPG.....

2008-07-19T22:45:00.006+08:00

Whew, a tiring but very fruitful day....

Am feeling both relieved that is over but then some what disappointed also that it's over..... Just do wish it could last longer.....
We had an amazing time of sharing, worshiping, feet-washing, listening to God's Word and most importantly PRayEr,(It was a prayer gathering after all.... Anyway, I thank God for being with us.... His presence was real and present.... And He guided our days program......

Well, I had a great time being an usher, getting to know new people, working together with different people and running around......
To all my ushers, it was my priveledge to serve with you guys..... Seriously........ You guys were just great and awesome...... And also to all my leaders, thanks for leading and serving the rest of the ushers....... Thanks for helping me to coordinate and making my job easier and fun..... And to my advisors, thanks for all the guidance and help, i definite would not be able to do any of these without you guys directing.......

I enjoyed the day, but the things that i enjoyed the most are
¬The procession..... Man, the music was really good, and the flag barrers made the atmosphere all the more grand, exciting, majestic and simply lovely, made me wanna cry..... What a way to start the prayer gathering....
¬Seeing people from different places and different language coming as one to cry out to the Lord..... This is indeed one of my hearts cry and passion....... It warms my heart everytime when i see brothers and sisters coming together to pray, worship and connect with God......
¬Connecting with people and making them feel at home is another of my passions.... Today, as head of ushers, i got to do that the whole day..... It just beings me an unspeakable joy that supplies me strength to smile and love and serve them the whole day...... Working with the ushers of my church and different youth groups was also just simple amazing...... I pray our partnership will never end......

What ever happened today, i thank God and praise Him, it was indeed a great day, one that the Lord has made..... One that has made HISTORY in beloved Malaysia....... One that will leave a legacy in my life......

I LOVE TO BE A KLUANGITE,
I LOVE TO BE A MALAYSIAN......
God BLess Malaysia.....

cHeMi5tRy...

2008-07-15T17:06:00.002+08:00

Yup, Have been a another long holiday away from my blog......

Well, what's been going on is that I've been learning to study.....

I thank God by God's His grace that he has helped me to learn to study and really get it.....

I've been literally burning mid-night oil...... Hehe....

I thank God that whenever i feel so tired and lazy, somehow i call on His name and then i feel stronger to tackle studies......

I just know He's helping me each day to build me stronger and stronger till i finally come face to face to tackle STPM....

Speaking about studies, we've just gone in the chapter Organic chemistry...... Somehow i've always enjoyed this the most in all the chapters in Chemistry..... Though there's really a lot to memorize, but I'm working at it.....

Alkanes-alkenes-alcohols-akyls-aldehyes-halides-ester-Ketones-benzene

It's just simply amazing how there all work around.....So complex yet amazing...... Many times we use the universe as an illustration about how amazing God is, but then many times all we need to do is look under a microscope.... Seeing the complex micro life also proves that an amazing creator exists......

mOvINg oN....

2008-06-25T23:32:00.004+08:00

Dearest Kai Xian, Engina, Hui Mun, Boon and Cheng Yee......

Thank you guys for everything..... I do wonder how life would be like without you guys.... And you know what? I just know that life without you guys would not be life at all.... And i thank GOd so much for all of you..... Cause He knew that i would need you guys by me along the way..... Each of you have helped me through different areas of my life.... Especially for the past year in STK as my seniors....... It has been a priveledge being called your junior..... But apart form just caring for me as a junior, you've also helped me so much as big brothers to a younger one.....

Saying goodbye is always hard for me.... Very hard... In fact i can say i hate it...... But still, it's a part of life we all have to face and go through..... I pray that our relationship will still grow and be sustained in Christ though we wont be able to see each other as frequent anymore..... Sigh, I am going to miss you all so so much......

I pray that God will guide you each step of the way as you will be moving into a whole new phase of life..... LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH.....

th3 bRoTh3r i nEver kn3w...

2008-06-18T22:37:00.006+08:00

Yeong Hing a.k.a Yong Ling, that's what everyone calls him anyway...... And yup, he's old already,haha.... Dun kill me le..... Anyway, I really thank God for bringing him into Yf, church and the family of God...... He has indeed blessed us all so so much..... We all view him as the big brother of the group, one who's watching out for us, protecting us and caring so much for us..... Though he is much older than a lot of us, he is still young and heart and makes the effort to connect with us all...... It just brings me great Joy to see him blend in so well with the Yfers especially, i just know he has found his place wit us.... Praise the Lord for that.....

Other than being a blessing to a group, he has also blessed individuals around him, and me as one of them...... 2 years ago, i never knew this guy at all..... I only know him as a basketball player for Eden and that's about it..... BUt i remember the day he first spoke to me during Eden's day last year...... (P.S. this is no love story ok,haha)..... And from then, as he attended and joined the activities we carried out, our friendship grew, by leaps and bounds..... I always see such relationships as God's blessings, that though i merely knew him for a year, we're now so close,that he no more is the Eden's basketball player anymore, but the friend that plays a vital role in my life...... The times i enjoy the most with him is the times when he would come over to my house and just talk and chat with me about everything under the sun..... Boy do we have fun.....

To my bro and friend

Yeong Ling, thanks for everything,

May this birthday be one that God brings you higher in him and deeper in him.....

Trust Him, for he never fails......

HaPp3inG5....

2008-05-25T12:20:00.008+08:00

Hey everyone.... I know I know, i have been gone already for quite a while, so i tot i can learn to post this post like Pastor Victor and Pastor Kelly..... Just put all I have in one post.... Haha.... Anyway, I was kinda busy lately, with a lot of stuff plus exams..... And this will serve as a good reason i hope for my absence....

Hmmm, I'll just go by chronological order.....

First was my school class sketch, my my..... It was ok, we were all nervous as usual before the sketch.... What made us more nervous was the amazing sketch that was played out by the F1 students which was really good...... We were stilll having problems with the whole story of the sketch just the week before the day we were supposed to act..... But thank God somehow, we managed to pull through, work together and in the end, our sketch came out pretty good.... Am not bragging, but then compared to the practices, it came out great on the day itself.... We really had a lot of natural talents..... And i do not mean myself.... teehee.... Many people think our theme which we were suppose to base on a moral value, went really off, but it doesnt matter much to me.... What mattered more was our team work to get this sketch up....
Heng Way, our director did a fine job..... Though we encountered quite some problems with the sketch itself, he managed to get us together to build this sketch up, with the help of Jolene and the entire class..... Well done guys..... And not to mention Khairil, one of our classmates..... A super talented guy who became our trainer.... What a clown la.... He did so well in helping us get the whole sketch to become better and more natural........ He's what we call a natural..... Haha....

Anxiously in preparation.....

Still anxiously in-action

Relieved, proud and overjoyed about the sketch... Say CHEEEZE!!

Next, is our lower 6 registration day..... During planning i was really glad knowing i was placed to head this event.... Dont know why i was so glad but i just was.... Anyway, 3 weeks before the whole event itself, planning was already in progress... It was hard work but i loved it..... I also had a great assistant to help me..... Jolene..... She's been pretty patient with me though many times i drive her crazy and up a wall..... Haha..... On the day itself, it was hot and tiring, but it was a great time to bond and get to know the upper 6 students better..... They were all big big help...... But the thing that really struck me was working together as MPPPU members of form 6, though they were all from different schools and classes, the upper 6 students all managed to pull through and work together as one.... It was a real fun time...... John, Pek ying and Pris also came in and made us all all the more excited....... HEhe.... Thanks you guys(upper 6) You've been a great great help..... Thanks also to the MPPPU board members.... It was great working together.... And also thank you teacher(Miss Neo) for being a great guide and advisor to us.....

Th3 faMou5 13....

Brother's home-coming was next.... Although i had my first paper on the day my bro was going to touch down, i went anyway..... Fine, Fine, I will admit ok, I DO MISS THE BIG GUY..... It was so good to see and have him back again..... Joy, Pek Ying and I accompanied some aunties, my grandma and parents to the airport...... There we met Ryan and Wei Ling too...... We waited anxiously for the big guy, and when we saw him everyone just became so excited, even me.... HEhe..... So now, though i dont have the whole room to myself anymore, it's ok, cause having him around is just great......
WELCOME HOME BRO, IT'S NICE TO HAVE YOU AROUND AGAIN......

sO haPpy TOaGeTher....

Last but not least is the MLM conference and graduation dinner..... MLM stands for Million Leaders Mandate, a course on Godly leadership started by John Maxwell.... Simon and Richard have been bringing us through this course which i find very good and applicable....... The first time i decided to join this classes, i enjoyed it so much i didnt miss a class all the way till today..... And Praise the Lord, I finished Book one which means I could graduate and have a cert with John Maxwell's signature on it.... Hehe,at least that's what simon always says.... Anyway, what's more important is the lessons learnt.... It has really opened my mind not only in the area of Godly leadership, but also my faith in Christ...... It CHALLENGES ME!!!! I still strongly encourage those who still arent following the classes to consider coming for it......

Anyway during the conference and graduation dinner, i was challenged once more and also got to be time keeper, something i did for the first time...... The speakers challenged us to be ExTERNALLY FOCUSED, which i felt was a very important lesson for the church of today...... For the graduation dinner, we also had a lovely time..... There was some problems with the arrangments for the sitttings but in the end the night was great..... Seeing everyone, old and young graduating book one going to get the certs was really exciting...... But all in all everyone did a great job including my dad who was the MC..... HEhe.... Well done DAD.....

m3 fAmiLy....

All these happenings for this month was great.... I thank God for experiences and opportunities He always opens for me.......

2008-05-06T20:28:00.002+08:00

"...The strength to take the first step is within us...
The strength to sustain and finish is in God...."

Agree???

Ed3N's dAy...

2008-05-01T21:18:00.009+08:00

Eden's Day today was a Blast..... Although i had classes in the morning and didnt get to be there in the morning, i still thank God for a great day...... ABlaze did pretty well for the games..... The Band was great too..... And everyone was very helpful and coorperative...... NOt only our booth but all the other churches also......

I always enjoy Eden's day as a time we get together as one big family in Christ to work together and bless the community...... Meeting old Friends from Eden and other brothers and sisters in christ from various churches is always refreshing........

You guys Rocked....

My Sista, OK!!!!

Lilttle Johnny was so excited about playing..... Hehe.... You Did awesome..

The 'Old' people are back....

My Mother chellenging herself with the games.... Go mum...

Who wants a picture with the Clown? How about a water baloon?

Blazing People.....

May GOd continue to use Eden's day for the Extension of His Kingdom in Kluang....

biRthDaY GurL...

2008-04-22T23:17:00.005+08:00

A couple of years back, on this very day, MISS NEO was born into this world..... And today, we got the priveledge to celebrate her birthday for her...... It took the effort of the MPPPU board members, some acting skills from some F1 guys as well as the great support and participation of all the form 6 students..... We all gathered at the Sports complex for recess to give her the surprise of her life..... She was indeed surprised..... Thank you guys for making it a success as well as making teachers day that day......
Miss Neo is no typical teacher...... She is a teacher who cares, who loves, who encourages, who diligently works, and who really is special.... I tell you, I've heard a lot about her but actually being able to work with her and be close to her speaks even more of who special and Amazing this teacher is....... I really really thank god for her and I pray and pray that one day she will see the Light.......

Anxiously waiting her arrival

Speechless and touched to tears....

The masterminds of the surprise

Thank you teacher for everything.....

Celebrating at Barneys....

Croup PIc.....

SiCkLy

2008-04-14T17:04:00.002+08:00

Man.....
I HATE BEING SICK.....
Feel my head spinning,
my throat is sore,
My fore head burns......
Skipped school today......
BUt though i go through his pain,
I thank the Lord for teaching me to praise HIm in such times......

Look on the bright side.....
At least now i have something to blog about.....
Haha

mY FaVouRit3 FunnY Man.....

2008-03-24T21:19:00.001+08:00

Gid and John, you guys have to watch this......

Sweet Memories.....

2008-03-23T19:49:00.012+08:00

Kaixian? Tired before camp?

Welcome to the guys room....

Still up chatting... (Yoeng Hing and me...)
The first worship session.... Joel andthe band, you guys did great ....

teAm EngiNa.... Victorious for the treasure Hunt... Hehe....

Say Cheese>

Mucks....
GOd Blezz You Jit!!!

poSing....

That's a towel with my name on it.... Heh...

Celebrating Yoshy's and Shampert's birthday.... Melon cake...

The DOgs get all The Love....

hmmmmm...

Hanging out in the room..... Hanging out with the guys in the dorm is one of my favourite times at camp...... We were wrestling, and having man talks..... Haha..... It was so fun where guys could just be guys..... Mr Aero was our leader....

Dear Dawzy, waiting for the shower..

The Blazing people....

I know, I know it's already been a month since camp.... But I promised photos.... Hehe.... And here are my favourites.... Wish i could post them all up cause i love them all.... Hehe......

Thank you Lord once more for the camp......

You were the one who made it a BLAST!!!!

GoOd bY3s??

2008-03-18T14:40:00.004+08:00

Someone once told me Goodbye stands for God Bless you, or something......

Anyway, for me, goodbyes are hard to say, and I'm not talking about 'goodbyes and see you again soon'..... Not the goodbyes you say to people who you'll see the very next day.....

The goodbyes I am talking about is the one when someone leaves your life and it will take a long time for one to see each other again........ The worst part of it is that what we've had experinced together now remains a memory.... Someone like the two examples I have below.... Hehe..... Will get to them later......

I thought of this many times before, and recently it has come back to my thoughts again...... I call it, the PAIN OF SEPARATION...... Somthing that is part of life...... We all just have to go through......

Last year, i saw my brother go...... Will be seeing him this May, but still, life has certainly changed since...... I dont see him everyday anymore and i might not be able to experience the same life with him as before again......

Ryan.....(btw that's shaving cream on his hand)

No doubt He's been a great blessing to me all this years, and seeing him leave us is some what sad..... I will miss you bro...... Though you're only in Singapore, life will just never be the same again..... Thanks for being such a blessing to me.......God has indeed used you to help me come so far in life till this day....... Now as you are leaving, my life will not be the same as before..... But I believe our friendship will still remain strong as it is sustained in Christ..... May God be with you in Singapore, that you'll be a even greater vessel for Christ to all those around you..... Love ya so much man and God Bless....

Murn....

She's one of the most bubblist girls I've ever known..... Hee...... She's not going very far, just Padang Hijau..... And it will only be 3 months..... Haha..... But, I will still miss her presence in Yf.... You're a great blessing and encouragement to me too Murn..... May you be able to influenze and impact the people God will be placing around you in NS..... May you also grow physically, mentally but most of all spiritually at camp....... Love ya and God Bless......

Leaving one another is a part of life.... No one can run from it...... Especially as youths, we will leave kluang one day to go for further studies and such...... And whether we come back to Kluang or not life will still not be the same already.......

After saying so much.... I believe worrying is not what we should do.... Instead, we should treasure the time we've got here in Kluang...... Treasure the relationships God has placed in our lives.... When the time comes for us to leave, dont let everything affect ones life, but let it all go into the hands of God and move one step at a time with the Lord's loving hand as ones guide.....

To conclude, I admit this is one of the things i 'hate' to face, though my time is soon to come..... But then I cling on to the hope, that though i might not be able to experience the lovely times i have in Kluang with my parents, my siblings, the Yfer dudes, my classmates, my relatives, though i need to leave one day, Heaven is a place we can all live together with no separation, or leaving one another..... I am indeed looking forward to it.....

God Bless.....>_<

BlaZiNg cAmP...

2008-03-10T22:05:00.004+08:00

Sigh.... Camp is indeed over.... NO more mountain top experience, all I have now is memories, and lessons, teachings and values, to take on this world God has placed me in...... I hate the after-camp-syndrome.... I admit I'm disappointed, sad for not being at camp already, but still, life goes on.... I have a world TO CHANGE!!!!

Anyway, like many blogs said, this was refreshing, We all had a wonderful, blasting, crazy, youthful, nutsy, WoWed of a time..... But unlike other camps, this is the most special one, and the most treasured one i have for my entire life..... Why?

It is because of what God has blessed me with..... YOu guys...... The blazing youths..... As a few people knew that I could not actually make the camp at first, I really praise the Lord that some how He made it right for me...... Not only that, He has also answered my prayer for having such a camp..... One that I have longed for, since i was form 1....... God is indeed amazing...... Through this camp, i enjoyed everything, from the night trekking, to the dorming with guys, to FOOOODD, to the sessions, and the games(thanks Cheng Yee, Tien, Pek, and Pris)..... But the thing i enjoyed the most, is the fellowship with each one of you Yfers..... Like i always tell others, there's always a bond that is just so wonderful between brothers and sisters in Christ..... And that was what i enjoyed and loved the most this camp...... Yf(not the place but the people that make the place) has a special place in my heart...... Throughout this years as a teenager, I have grown so much not thanks to the YF place, but to the people there who's helped me..... And through this and only this can i have said that Yf has been a vessel of GOd to groom me and change me, and teach me.......

This is what i think Yf should be..... Yf to me is all about relationships..... First of all is our relationship with God...... It is here we get to listen to youthly sermons and study God's Word together...... After that, like the bible says, we cant say we love God but dont love our brothers and sisters in Christ....... We need one another..... To encourage one another, to pray for one another, to care for one another, burden together each other's problems, older ones look after the younger ones, love one another, and worship God together in everything we do....... Through this camp, i got the opportunity to see that...... US AS A BIG FAMILY!!!! Makes me just wanna cry out of JOY!!!!! It just warms my heart......

This camp, reminds me a lot about heaven..... I dont know whether I can ever experience such a camp with you guys again..... BUt I believe in eternity, we can have such times, such 'camps' together as much as we wan...... Hehe..... I look forward to that..... As for the remainding days as a BLAZING YOUTH, I want to really treasure the time i have with all you guys, to be GOd's blessing to you guys.......

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH....... May YOu all Grow in the Lord and start making a DIFFERENCE Wherever God's placed you..... Remember, whenever you feel drained and tired, remember the Lord, turn to HIm..... and also, remember God's children, Your brothers and sisters in Christ who are there for you....... Remember the Yfers.... remember the BlaZING YoUthS!!!!!
Love you guys SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!!! God Bless you ALL!!!!!

P.S..... Photos will be up soon!!!!

mY cG... LOv3 CG....

2008-02-26T18:22:00.003+08:00

Acts 2:46..

"They worshiped together at the Temple each day, met in homes for the Lord's Supper, and shared their meals with great joy and generosity.."

The passage on Acts, talks about the early christians acts, showing how usited a body they were... And, like the early christians, I thank God for my family cg..... Just last Saturday we went for dinner together, and snapping this pictures and taking a while to observe the entire group over a meal together was just amazing...... It made me ponder and know that how the Lord has trully blessed us..... What we do as a cg is simply just remarkable..... I just enjoy the times we have together and that night was one of the many hightlights..... And let me say that the joy does not come becoz of food, Hehe, but because I am amazed to see how so many different people even of different age coming together to read the word, to pray, to feast together, to fellowship together..... There are two joys of my CG, one my sister(hehe) and the other, the joy of the Lord and the Love of God which binds us together.......

To all especially the youths, if you are not attending a family CG, my encouragement is to find one and join it.... It's lovely to hang out with our peers, but there is a very special thing when we spend time and hang out with our more senior brothers and sisters too..... God Bless....

BL3zz3D ChiNeZe n3W y3aR.....

2008-02-09T21:19:00.000+08:00

BAh!!!! I think I'm getting fat..... Eating and eating and not to mention eating some more.... Haha.... But i think everyone's doing the same.... Hehe..... Well, anyway, it's another new year.....

There's a few thing that fascinates me during this festive season..... One would be the never ending food..... Every house you visit would be filled with biscuts and all types of goodies....Since young, it was only during chinese new year that i seemingly had no limitations to the amount of food intake, and to a child, sweet stuff was everything..... Well, as a grown 19 year old teen, the fascination lives on.......

Another would be the time we get to see and interact and catch up with different family members..... Some who has changed throughout the pass one year, others still the same, never to change in a hundred years..... God has indeed blessed me with so many family members.... And also the connection between all of them with my family is just amazing..... It is indeed refreshing as you enter the houses of an Aunt or Uncle, they welcome you with smiles and food and not to mention.....ANG POWS....Keke,Kiddin..... All these combines to bring a sense of warmth of family.......

I found out only this Chinese NEw year that i had also been very awed by little kids, especially cute little boys...... Oh My Goodness, they are just so cute, one would be my cousin, Chris, He's so so cute, but he cries like a siren..... Man, it is annoying at times, but many a times, the loudness of the noise just fades when you see that cute innocent face of his........ ANother would be my Mum's cousin's sons....... My second cousins....... She has 4 boys, Joseph, Joshua, Jordan and Jared..... They are so adorable...... I played with them and find them not just cute on the outside, but very pleasant to be around with, though they are boys, they arent rascals..... Man....

I manage to take a picture with them..... hehe....

Anyway, this has been a tiring but great new year...... I thank the Lord for it.... MAy He continue to bring us all through a renewal of minds and hearts for this new year.......
Like my dad says, Chinese new year is GOd's second chance for us to start over our New YEAR!!!

cRoZZ CouNTrY n TeSt TuBeZ..

2008-01-29T20:01:00.000+08:00

Hie..... Am Back after so long..... Sometimes, i feel a lil uneasy in me when i dont update my blog..... Feels funny, and, some people have been asking about my blog too..... hehe.....

Anywayz, been busy with sports in school especially..... We just had our cross country last Saturday..... And this is a testimony of God's grace..... I didnt train on my own like i used to, but then i so badly wanted a medal,(never had one my entire life)... Since it was the last year in secondary school, i wanted to try my best..... I had this thought though that since so few guys in form 6, it wouldnt be that hard to get something..... I WAS WRONG, that day, they all ran so well, the first guys,Chee Hao from my class took only 20 minutes to reach the finish line, after approximately 6Km of estate road..... He's good man..... Anyway, when I ran, i kept telling myself to not stop running, but after about 3-4km, i had to stop for a while, and i tell you the temptation to walk and not run anymore is SO STRONG...... But then I kept praying that God will give me the strength to run,and at least finish the race..... And towards the end, I gave it my all, sprinted all the way to the finish line(it was down hill anyway, Keke....) And to my surprise, I got 16th, and to my greater surprise, i got a medal,it was plastic but still, it was a medal.... HEHE!!!! I thank the Lord so much for helping me not only finish the race without dying, but also getting a medal for me..... I just wan to give all praise to Him, I could never do it without HIM!!!!!

Test tubes..... Hmmm, I decided to write on this becoz i find it really interesting.... Nowadays in school, i have been doing anion and cations analysis...... And i never enjoyed Chemistry lesson so much before..... Sometimes, i dont fully understand what it means, or what solution to another makes what, but then, i just think the chemicals in the test tubes are so cool....... JUST SO COOL!!!!! It's such a nice feeling to see a chemical that is colourless mixing another to make a colour liquid appear, or mixing colours together to make a clear solution, or even mixing solutions to get a heated up solution.... I just find it fun..... One of my Cheeky friends would take all the left over from the experiments and mix it together after the experiment, and today, he came up with a solution which was 3 coloured, pink on the top, white in the middle and black at the bottom..... SO COOL...... HEHE!!!!! Ya, so just wanna share with you guys the amazing world of test tubes..... Hehe......

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2008-01-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

I know I'm not a frequent blogger.....
Sometimes i find it so uneasy to look at my blog....
Haha.... Feel So empty.....
Anyway, Thank God that finally have got the time to at least come on the computer to say a few words......
Been kinda busy lately...... People have been saying that about me.....
and honestly, it is not something to be proud about......
Sorry to all those who think I'm Mr Busy..... Because the fact is I'm not......
Last night at MLM, I learnt that a normal mind always strives to be busy.......
Sometimes I do have that, but deep down, i dont.....
I wan to have a renewed mind in CHIRST......
Anyway, why I'm seemingly busy????
Not sure what answer to give you.....
but, a promise is that I'm learning to cope in Christ who gives me strength.....

MeMOrieS of cHiLdhooD in ScHooL

2008-01-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

Shirley, used to be the life of the class room.... haha.....She changed so much...

Class monitor, Hui wen..... Currently studying in THO...

William and Jian wei

Zong Li

Bao Yi, she used to be tallest in class, but now, hehe...

Xue Li.....We're school mates again...

Eddy Ding, used to sit next to one another in class, and now, history is repeating itself.... Currently one of the closes friends I have in class....

Tai(classmates again) and Wei Jian....

Last but not least, Guo You.... We used to be the closest of friends in school, being in the same class since Primary 1 to 6, we basically grew up together in primary school.....

I know my blog has so many picutures.....
Many have come to me and tell me the same thing......
Wink Wink Elween.....
Anyway......
After Yf last week, Gid and I went off for a class reunion.....
Our Primary class 6M reunion......
Though it was just a few of us, not the whole class, it was so nice seeing them again....
The changes in them after 6 years just had us a hard time believing it who it was.....
It is always a Joy for me to come across old friends,
Sometimes, friends will leave, sometimes we will leave, as time clowly passes,
But God is Amazing, He puts the right friends we need in our lives at the right time.....
And no matter where we are, I believe true friendship is forever if it's entrusted to the Lord,
Leaving the friendship to sustain in Him,
And no matter how long we've never met,
It will always be a Joy when friends are back together.....

KiDzz.... Babies....

2008-01-11T18:21:00.000+08:00

Some people just adore them, others cant stand them....

Me? Well, I'm more of in the center.... I dont Adore them like mad, neither do I hate them,

But then, there are certain kids and babies that I just adore.....

My definition of adorable is really not as simple as the word itself, but then here are some examples......

The top most would be baby popular(Cashya)....... From top to bottom, Baby Chara(If I spelt it correctly),Rev Peter Chin's daughter, Xing Rui my cousin, and sister, Xing Bei and my personal favourite, Yi Sheng from KT..... They are s sweet, cute and adorable....

One thing I'm still learning is to carry a baby the right way...... Hehe.....

wOrShiP teaM retReAt...

2008-01-02T14:21:00.000+08:00

'God our Rock and Salvation, our Stream within that forever quenches our thirst, and the root and source of our lives.......'

It was an interesting way to celebrate our new year..... Jaeson organized a day trip for us to go to Gunung Belumut yesterday... We had a great time there.....

We had a picnic, worshiped in songs and also had a great time of fellowship......

We played captain ball in the freezing water.... I have some cuts, but it was all worth it.......

Priase God for the great time we had there.....

nEW Eeeerrrrr....

2007-12-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

A year has come and gone.....

So quick,

so haste.......

Bye 2007....

Hi 2008......

New challenges,

New things.....

There will be Joy,

there will be sorrow.....

But it is a reminder of hope,

for every tomorrow.......

Hope in Christ,

Hope to see our future assured,

in the almighty hand...

happy New year!!!

cHri5tmA5....

2007-12-25T19:58:00.000+08:00

Caroling..... One of the most treasured times of Christmas for me....... It's fun and we get to spend time with one another..... But Cheng Yee puts it in a good way, it is also a time we get the chance to sing to the world openly about the bible.......Cant wait for next years one...... heh.....

A sea of red carollers...
Prayer before setting off....

Miriam home....

Shelter home

kluanG Rail

Barneys

Arrival at the Tangs, Bus 1.....

My Grandma's with Kor listening to us all the way from England..

Count down at John's place

Second last house..... Pastor Yono's house...

The Strong men of the group... heh.... The Bus pushers....

GROUP PHOTO!!!!!

God Bless you guys..... YOu've been a big blessing to me...... Love YOu Guys....

Ick.......

2007-12-17T20:34:00.000+08:00

This is my old specks......

It looks funny....

Kevin says I look like a Nerd,

haha.....

Makes my face look round.....

Anyway, will be changing it in 2 days time....

e5P.....

2007-12-12T11:05:00.000+08:00

I have NO IDEA what they're doing.... They're just girls.... Hehe

This is caryn, a future teacher too...

Ashlee, looks terribly alike her sisters....

Daniel, Kor's really really good friend..... A great leader and interpreter

The Kluang Dancers...... Man they were so good..... Good job girls....

Well, camp is over,

It is both a relief and a sigh, yet i wished it was longer......

Everytime I have a camp experience Especially with the Yfers,

I feel like heaven,

WHy???

Because its like a whole big family in christ living together.....

This camp was fun,
No air-con for rooms but then all the guys lived close to one another...... I had a great time....

And like i tell people, fun is not where you are or what you do,

but is Who you're with.......

Thanks all you Yfers as well as all the other campers......

I enjoyed the fellowship......

But enough about fun,

The message was fruitful too......

"WE ARE HOLY,rite?"

"WE ARE POWERFUL"

"NO MORE I WHO LIVE BUT CHRIST WHO LIVES IN ME"

"HOLINESS IS COOL"

THis are just short lil statements, but yet still rings in my ears.....

The Pastor was cool, just not really used to his style of preaching but yet, the message was good......
The biggest ringing in my ears is that, God has given us the strength to overcome whatever He's put before us......many times, we think we cant, but is not that we cant, the strength of the Lord iswithin yet, many a times is we DO NOT WANT.......

Thank You Lord for your word, and also your presence felt so strongly in Inti.....

Well, I also thank God for Wei Kwong,

God gave me the courage and strength to talk to Him about God.....

We talked for about an hour before we slept one night.....

I thank God for such a friend like him......

My prayer is that He will see the truth of God one day.......

Well, now for reality, something we have to face

And, like Uncle Ven says, though camp is over,

our walk isnt,

we had fun and had a refreshing time,

now let us come back into the world and 'conquer' it,

FOR WE ARE POWERFUL!!!!!

Final Pictures...... Sorry Yong Ling..... Haha....

pRAYer.....

2007-12-03T17:42:00.000+08:00

1 Thessalonians 5:17

"Pray without ceasing."

For the pass week, we've been praying together as a commitee.....

It required a lot of sacrifice,

But am really proud to see the commitment of the whole team,

God did speak through each of them,

and i personally believe God is going to send something to Hit Kluang.....

On saturday night, we gathered at hui Ying's house to pray.....

We had a great time too.....

Kluang was bathed in prayer that night where 600 plus people from different church of different language but of the same town united to pray as one......

I was really encouraged.....

Let us together like the Word says, Pray without ceasing........

And Wait for God to come......

Annual Dinner.... Finally.... The photos...

2007-11-27T10:50:00.001+08:00

Our Back drop.....

Violin Trio

Elween and Hui Mun..... Performing Opera.... He's so good....

Installation

Incoming board

Mc's of the day

President 2006/2007

Flowers...... Heeee....

Mr Pre-U

dAnCinG.....

2007-11-14T21:59:00.000+08:00

Something you guys might or might not believe..... I love dancing...... Never done it before.... But still, always hoped to do it one day..... It's sort of my secret dream.... One I many times only can admire from afar..... Heee.....

Favourite dance is hip hop.......

Dancing can be an expression of our worship to God with our whole body.....

I think it's so cool.....

3 guys and a GaMe....

2007-11-13T09:20:00.000+08:00

It was so fun just to hang out with two guys playing monopoly.... Ryan and Tan came over for a sleepover...... We played and talked all the way till 4am.... I had fun playing monopoly..... A game i used to be so addicted by.... Heh...... Anyway.... Thanks guys.... It was fun to have you over......

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2007-11-06T22:18:00.000+08:00

What Can I Do

Verse 1:
When I see the beauty of a sunset's glory,
amazing artistry across the evening sky
When I feel the mystery of a distant galaxy
It awes and humbles me to be loved
by a God so high

Chorus:
What can I do but thank You,
what can I do but give my life to You
Halle- lu- jah, hallelujah
What can I do but praise You,
everyday make everything I do a hallelu - jah
A hallelujah, hallelu - jah

Verse 2:
When I hear the story of a God of mercy
Who shared humanity and suffered by our side
Of the cross they nailed You to, that could not hold You
Now You're making all things new by the power
of Your risen life

I like this song by Paul Baloche.... Really meaningful and lovely tune.....

MPPPU dinner......

2007-11-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

Yup, my very first prom night...... I never wore so nice in my life..... Hehe..... Welll, it's finally over......

Firstly is a great big thanks to God my Lord...... The night wasnt prefect I admit..... There were some technical errors and some lack of control over the crowd..... It was frustrating..... BUt I admit, overall, it was really good....... I whispered little prayers to God once in a while..... And though I should be disappointed about all the flaws last night, still, I dont..... IN fact I feel great.... Hehe..... Thank you Lord.......

Secondly, would like to thank the whole MPPPU team..... You guys did so well...... And I love working with you guys..... In fact, I look forward to next year..... That we can work together and grow closer as a team in friendship....... Thanks to the President, Ah Too...... And the rest of you guys, Jolene, Ian, Ai Ping, Ah Phang, Ding, Phang Cheng, Nathan, Sen Lih, Xue Ting and Samuel....... I also wan to thank teacher who is also part of the team... Actually we are part of her team... ANyway, thanks for your support and guidance..... And also Lunch..... Hehe......

Last But not least are the volunteers...... All of you but in particular my camera man..... Shi Hao, Heng Way and Zhi Howe....... You guys did great..... Sorry Shi Hao about the camera which kept dying, but some how you managed to do the best job you can.... You kept trying and I was very encouraged by that...... All you guys enthusiasm was also very encouraging...... Thanks...... May we also grow in a deeper friendship in the years to come...... GIDEON.... I didnt forget you..... My PA guy....... Thanks for the help...... Helping Nathan at teh back.... With anything he's got for you.... Thanks pal......

I feel somewhat relieved about the dinner finishing...... The seniors say that it is the biggest thing we'll plan as MPPPU board directors...... But then, yet, I feel a bit funny.... That it's finally over..... Feel like planning it again...... Hehe......

P.S..... Photos will come later......