U tHeRe, U DaRe??

Praise God!!!
Praise Him for another camp...
This is my 7th one so far...
And till now,
I've never regretted going any one of them....
I mean,
people can say it's the same camp over and over again,
but then I always believe it's the attitude behind it,
it's how one approaches the camp...

THis year,
i thank God for the opportunity to be part of the committee...
It was hard work,
but it sure paid off...
I learnt so much,
struggled so much,
and believe that now,
I HAVE COME OUT STRONGER...
God really taught me a lot through this experience,
I was STRECTHED....

But apart from the challenge of preparing the camp this year,
God still challenged me....
He challenged me in many ways but mainly in 2 areas...

Firstly is when Pastor Daniel talked about fitting in,
about not wanting to feel rejected and by succumbing to peer pressure just so we can fit in....
He challenged all of us about how we should not cling on so tightly on the world's acceptance,
but on GOD...
HOnestly, this has been and still is one of the biggest struggles of my life...
I struggle so much to want people to accept me especially in my younger days that many times i dont realize i still do it now...
Sigh,
It's indeed a sad part of my life...
Many times even now,
I still just do things just so i can blend in with those close to me,
even though i dont really like to do those things...
BUt for this whole year,
God has been challenging me to find who i really am....
And be who He made me to be,
camp was an important reminder and confirmation on that...
As much as it is hard to overcome this,
In HIm I can DO ALL THINGS....

The second thing was when Aunty Dorcas prayed for me...
The challenge or Word for me was to bring the presence of GOd with me wherever I go,
and how do we do so?
We bring the presence of God when we learn to FEAR GOD....
My prayer is that more and more I would be able to bring God's presence whever I go to be able to usher his kingdom into places and people who are yet to be touched by HIm....

Overall,
I had loads of fun,
and it was fruitful,
apart from ministry and messages,
another thing i look forward to so much during camp is Friends,
and not just FRiends,
but Brothers and Sisters from all over the country that loves GOd....
To me,
being together with a brother or a sister in Christ just refreshes me....
Not only those from different towns,
but also those from Kluang...
It is just a relationship that gives me such goosebumps that trully is really really dear to me...
And I thank God for making new friends....
I pray we will continue to spur one another up for His Kingdom and HIS SAKE....

aBSence...

Yup, it's been a while since I've updated my blog,
Funny,
have been back over two weeks now,
and some how I cant think of anything to write...

I did mention to myself before that I wont "pressure" myself to write...
If I get something,
I write,
If not,
Dont lor....

To me blogging isn't my best thing and it isnt priority,
Hehe,
Yup,
But will see,
it has been great to be back,
and it's gonna be a great December ahead...

Oh, Lord, take me through it YOUR WAY...

wHAt wOuLD YOu DO?

HAha, i know it's kinda obvious rite?
Just finished my papers today....
WOOHOO!!!!
So i decided to catch a movie with my course mates...
We decided we wanted to watch the latest movie,
and so this was our choice...
I heard some reviews about it already from Gid,
and thought of it as just another movie to relax and enjoy the action and effects and see how Hollywood would imagine the end of the world...
I didnt expect much from the movie,
I went in expecting entertainment,
and left convicted and challenged....

This is one of the best movie's i watched this year....
It wasnt so much about the effects or the plot of the story,
nor is it the action and the excitement of the movie,
but it was the content of the movie,
the MESSAGE it brought to me personally as well as it was bringing to the world....

Personally:

One of the two things that hit me the most during the show is the love of a Father... Countless time during the show, was how the father would do everything he can, even his life to save his child.... Now come to think of it, it was so weird that they didnt show much of the mother's response... Dont get me wrong, i know the depths of a mother's love for the family and her children, but somehow, the father's of the show are highlighted so much that it led me to questioning whether that would be what i would do for my child.... One of the Father's main role in the family is to PROTECT.... That was the role so clearly seen there... I kept asking myself, can i do that too?

I've never always dreamt I would be a father, but then recently, I had this desire to be one and it was pretty strong... And today, seeing how the those father gave their whole self into protecting their family especailly their kids, made me really ponder and challenge myself to reach that level.... Because I know that before I can ever think about starting a family at all, that is a level of love I have to reach, that is a standard i have to follow, it's like GOd the Father, his love was so great, he gave his ALL, his only begotten son to die for us and like him, that is the model i desire to follow...

Can i be that father? I cant answer that, but I can say, that I am on the journey of learning to be one...

Generally:

The whole story I would sum up would be selfish love, or selfless love.... In the movie, everyone wanted to live, reality, who wants to die rite? I know selfish love sounds a bit ridiculous and impossible but i would define it as love that is shown only when you are comfortable... Such love involves loving oneself and those around that are easy.... Such love will never stand when there is trials or hardship, like the movie, love like that was shown when they found out the world was ending, there only loved or did things with love when convenient, and whenever their life was treathened, it was their own lives first before others.... Such isnt true love...

Like in 1 Corinthians 13, love is not selfish... It is selfless.... Regardless of the situation we face, love still exists and never dies if it is selfless... In the movie, everyone showed the selfish love at first but at the end, one man was convicted which led to a twist in the show where it ended with selflessness....

"The moment we stop fighting for one another, it is when we lose our humanity"...

There were a few times when i was so moved by the movie, i wanted to cry but i manage to hold back.... But after this was said, I teared... This was the CLIMAX of the story.... This was the MESSAGE of the movie... Whatever happens, Jesus set an example of true love by dying for us so that we may live...

In the bible it speaks about putting others before one self and that itself can sum up what love really is...

Like the title says, that was the question I asked myself.... What would I do if i were them? For now, I can say that most likely i would have just tried to save my own lives and the others I hold dear to me.... BUt GOd challenged me to dive deeper.... To redefine love in my life... And such love is just impossible, really impossible.....

BUt all things are possible in Christ rite???

Wow, it is a movie i encourage everyone to watch this movie...

It will really really teach you and challenge you....

kNiGht R-I-D-E-R

Oh Man,

Cant seem to get better pics of this...

Sigh, this will have to do...

Dont really do movie or show previews

(that's Gideon's job),

Haha,

Anywayz,

Have been watching Knight Rider series....

Actually didnt think much of it...

I know there was an older version,

but my first time watching was in Jit's house....

It was ok la,

I really loved the car,

but the whole show looked kinda boring,

so didnt bother about it much....

BUt then later I gave it a try....

IT WAS NICE!!!

Hehe....

2 things I love about the movie,

one like I've mentioned,

THE CAR!!!

WOW,

A Mustang wei...

I may not know much about cars,

but I know I would dream and drool over a car like that,

the features of the car itself already is a magnet to all guys around...

I love the way it transforms although it reminds me a lot about TRANSFORMERS...

Hehe...

Exactly the same transformation style...

BUt the second thing I love is the advance High-tech things they do...

Seeing how the agents hack into computer systems,

into security cameras,

into networks,

phone lines,

and how they use Artificial Intelligence to crack cases....

To me,

IT's SO COOL....

HAha....

To some extend i wish i was a hacker...

YOu sEE tHE dEPtHs Of mY HEaRt aNd YOu LOvE mE tHE samE...

INDESCRIBABLE

Chris Tomlin

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creations revealing your majesty
From the colours of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable;
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and give source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable;
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable;
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

I really love this song,
it's one of my favourite songs....
I so happen to be listening to it last night during devotion...
This time I was listening to a different version...
It was by Passion...
And some how suddenly I heard something, and I realized something....
GOd was showing and telling me something...
Indescribable God,
He is indeed indescribable but
not only He made the sun, moon and stars,
not only becaused He created the seas and the mountains,
not only because He created every season summer, spring, autumn and winter,
not only becasue He was the Creator of all things,
but this time I saw something more than all that,
why He is INdescribable,
is because
HE LOVES US just the same
even though He knows the
DEPTHS of our HEARTS....

When I heard that,
I was like WOW,
Even though you know how evil we can be
Even though you know how we as your creation will betray you
Even though you know how we cling a lot to our selfish desires
Even though you know how we will fail you
Even though you know so much about who we are,
knowing how much we do not deserve You,
You still by your grace and mercy,
LOVE US STILL THE SAME....

Think of it,
how many of us after,
knowing all the dark secrets and shocking truths about a friend,
after seeing and knowing the depths our their hearts
can still love them,
holding nothing back from them?
But loving them STILL THE SAME?
I CANT...

"Incomparable, unchangeable,
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same;
You are amazing God,
You are amazing God.."

Indeed Lord,
You are amazing GOd,
Thank YOU for loving me just the SAME even by knowing the DEPTHS of my HEART..
You are trully Amazing...

An ORdinARy SUndAy... An X-tRAORdinARy inCident... And A LeSSOn LeARnt...

Well, like i said it was just like any Sunday,
Sitting in City mall's Big Apple,
with a drink and my computer...
And then it was time to pick Christine from the airport....
So off I went with Esther to the car....
And to my greatest shock,
THE CAR WOULDN't START!!!!
Honestly, i started to panic....
What was worse,
the alarm started to go on and the car locks went crazy....
I WAS LIKE,"AHHH!!!!"
Though it was a scream i did in my heart and didnt let out....
I also was asking GOd what to do now...
Well, Esther and I tried and tried but couldnt do anything,
something was wrong....
Esther then gave me Melvyn and Joshua's phone to contact them since she said they lived nearby anyway....
I was a bit "pai seh" at first since I didnt know them as well,
but i was desperate....
I CALLED!!!!
I didnt know how to put into words,
but I just spoke la,
Joshua who was on the phone with me agreed instantly to come....
In less than 5 minutes,
they came...
I was like WOW....
They then helped check on the car and found out about the battery of Christine's car to have "dried up"....
Josh then called Eric who had jumper cables and he too immediately responded and came within 5 minutes too....
WOW again...
He then linked the jumper cables from his car to Christine's...
And after a few minutes,
it started...
PRAISE GOD....
Whew....
I thanked them and rushed to the airport to pick Christine...
I too thought that was the end of the Episode....
But then, just after about 100 metres,
I came to a U turn, and just as I was about to enter the U turn,
the car stopped AGAIN!!!
I screamed softly again "AHHH!!!!"
NOT NOW, in the middle of a busy road....
BUt God does work in wondrous ways...
Eric and Josh was just behind us....
This time, it was more challenging as there were cars honking us and stuff...
I was praying like so hard man....
This time it took longer than usual....
And finally the car started up in 10 over minutes....
This time Josh drove the car with Esther and I went with Eric....

Yup, indeed an ordinary sunday turned EXTRAordinay because of this incident,
Lesson LEARNT???
Well,
basically two lessons....

1. I felt very helpless that time when I just didnt know what was going on with the car... And even when Josh and Eric were there to help, I didnt even know WHAT TO DO... In a way I was very disappointed with myself that I didnt know what to do, I didnt know how... I didnt know why.... Sigh, that was when I challenged myself, or i think it was more of GOD challenging me to not be so layed back anymore, if I can learn something, i SHOULD... I should be more deligent into looking into learning and acquiring skills and knowledge.... I just want to increase my general knowledge... I MUST LEARN TO PUSH MYSELF... And like Pastor shared the Sunday itself to learn to COME OUT of my COMFORT ZONE... I wouldnt call myself a spoilled child, but I wouldnt consider myself as a very handy guy either... I need to be like what Russell Peter says.... BE A MAN!!

2. But the second thing was about ONE BODY.... I thank God for the family he's given me here.... Like Pastor shared before, whever I go, I HAVE FAMILY, because of CHRIST.... In such times of helplessness and need, they are always there willing to help... That night, Eric, Melvyn and Joshua had a birthday celebration and they not only sacrificed their time and effort, but I sensed so strongly they did it with such a WILLING HEART to come all this way to help a guy they barely know.... They responded without hesitation, they also never blamed me or said I was taking their time, They NEVER mentioned anything like that but came helping me with a smile... I could see so clearly that they cared, since the first thing they did was ask about me and console me that it was normal to face such incidents... In the car with Eric, he kept telling me it was normal and was so patient into telling me a few basics about how to start a car and what to do during such situations.... I said thanks, and he kept saying "No Prob" with a smile which helped me feel so much better at that situation.... Even Pastor John called me during that time to see whether I was ok, and kept calling to ask about the situation.... It's not that I dont know about the loving family of GOd, but somehow, when we are really are in the situation, that the THEORY we learnt becomes a reality that you get such a revelation that now, YOUR WHOLE BEING, not only your mind knows what it trully means.... And that is when we Trully LEARN a LESSON....

I was very touched by them and I thank GOd so much for them.... I dont know what else to say but Thanks, and I pray that we would be able to grow closer as a family to continue to help each other during this JOURNEY OF LIFE.....

ALoNe? LoNeLiNess? soLituDe? WIFI?

It's another Sunday...
And I'm once again "Feeding" off someone's WIFI...
HAha, but am legally feeding k....
Last time was Starbucks,
and then Old Town,
and today am at BIG APPLE...
So tempted to have a donut...
Hehe....
Yup,
this is how i go through Sundays...
Just God,
me,
My lappy-top,
and
a drink....
It's really relaxing and a great way to spend the Sundays....
But of course this is only if I am all alone for the sundays...
IF there's someone to accompany me,
or if there's some event I've got to attend,
then yup,
you know the rest of the story....

But such times are indeed treasure...
Being in Uni,
there is hardly anytime for you to sit down and stop worrying about stuff around...
Even if you have the time,
some thing or someone will always come in the picture,
and that time of "silence" is disrupted....
NOt blaming those things la...
In fact I love to do stuff,
and I definitely love spending time with PEOPLE....
But we just have to find some time to sit down,
relax,
reflect,
blog,
use internet,
chat with buddies and family back home....
Like what someone once told me,
it's not good to leave in loneliness,
but then it's always good to find time to be alone,
with both yourself(REFLECTION),
and with GOD(PRAYER),
especially in such BUsy busy times of our era....

To me it's really refreshing....
To both Mind and Spirit....
Priase gOd for times like this...

19 days more PAulus....
19!!!! Woohoo...
Cant wait...